if i have another fp i will actually kill myself😭😭😭 I HATE HAVING FPS I HATE IT Let me be normal omfg

(clawing my face off) I WANT TO BE LOVED SO BADLY

every day of you not being here is another day that i am only half of me at most. i haven’t been at my most in years. my best is not something without you in the picture.

it’s been years. i don’t care if nobody else understands. i’m losing it. and it’s pathetic because it’s just one person but it’s not, it’s not just one person and he will never be just one person to me. i love him and it’s not that i need him, but that we have always been together. haven’t we? it feels like we were always together. how am i to be expected to deal with him being taken away from me for years on end? i see him in the halls.

i wonder if he sees me.

i wonder if he will see me when i have died

i miss my brother. i miss my world and miss when things were simpler.

who are you fucking kidding?

i’m so mad. i want my fucking childhood back. i hate you all

i’m so scared for what reason? hes even gonna do it for me but i’m so scared i don’t want them to be mean to him or anything he said he’ll be fine he doesn’t care if that person tries to hurt him but i care. i care if they hurt my headmates i dont care if they hurt me just if they hurt my headmates

m so afraid it’s gotta get done today but i’m so scared it won’t work

m so afraid it’s gotta get done today but i’m so scared it won’t work

i’ll disappear from people’s lives as quietly and suddenly as i entered them

everything is shit and thats that!

im killing myself im sooo killing myself

nvm im fine he responded he doesnt hate me guys the post is called off 🤍

i should never get attached to people ugh i hate my fucking life why did i honestly think this would be any different it’s not POSSIBLE for me to gain connections to people and NOT fuck things up even normally why should i even bother in a proper romantic relationship.

i should never get attached to people ugh i hate my fucking life why did i honestly think this would be any different it’s not POSSIBLE for me to gain connections to people and NOT fuck things up even normally why should i even bother in a proper romantic relationship.

im so fucking pissed

(experiences emotions) this fucking sucks i should off myself rn

feeling like shit again. i don’t know why i’m like this. i don’t want to be like this. it’s so difficult to behave humanly. i know i have to.

it’s just all so hard