I understand now; I thought it would better if I was embraced by death himself, But I am death. I kill relationships, Romantic or platonic, it makes no difference, I was graced with the presence of 8 beautiful souls, Yet my existence robbed those souls of the ability to flourish. I need to be sent through the doors and turned into ash, For the sake of those around me, For the sake of humanity

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It took me too long, Too long to see the scars you left me, To see how damaged I'd become from your presence in my life. I was blind to the burns left behind by your touch,  I was numb to your lies and broken promises. Blinded by love I let you disrespect me, Even when you left, I still couldn't picture you as a bully. But now I've woken up, I've stopped numbing myself, I feel those burns you left me, I see the scars and damage, I allowed myself to acknowledged the broken promises and lies. I am trying to feel the hurt and accept you as a bully, I will use this pain and experience to rebuild myself to be stronger and wiser.

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