‘CAUSE I’M A REAL TOUGH KID I CAN HANDLE MY SHIT THEY SAID BABE YOU GOTTA FAKE IT TIL YOU MAKE IT AND I DID LIGHTS CAMERA BITCH SMILE EVEN WHEN YOU WANNA DIE

i think this album is a lot more abstract than we're used to with taylor, who is usually pretty direct, but people are still interpreting some of these lyrics extremely literally to infer factual real life events. sometimes lyrics just rhyme. sometimes imagery is used to invoke a feeling rather than make a legally binding statement. its ok to not know everything that happened to her for these songs to be, its more important to know whats happening with YOU as you listen to them.

Taylor doesn't need to do any promo to be successful, but I do think it's also fair for fans to be disappointed or bored that she chooses to do literally nothing these days promote a new album. For me we have just kinda lost the fan connection with her completely that used to be so damn special. We're also all older, so it doesn't matter as much. But there's something sad about it. I'll always be here, always be so excited no matter what, but I do miss how things used to be sometimes.

thinking often about how things went downhill and I never expected it to go this badly. about how love only changes but I wish it had disappeared because, whatever this is, it isn't something you do to people you love. about how I miss you and I hate myself for missing you because ever since everything happened, you've done nothing but your best to see me break down. does this make you feel better? I spent months calculating my every step because hurting you was the last thing I wanted—because even if I couldn't hold you with me in the way you wished me to, I still didn't want to lose you. because I cared so much, and I still do, but now all that's left is a bitter aftertaste in my mouth. you act like nothing much has happened and you pretend you're fine and yet you're the one people feel sympathy for. your life has been moving forward since before we decided to end things and mine has been crumbling down all around me. did I really deserve this? you let me eat, breathe, sleep guilt, and all the time you fed me lies. I trusted you and you went and you told my secrets to people who do not know me. I trusted you more than anyone and you didn't wait a single second to go and break that trust and break my heart just because you felt entitled to it. you didn't wait to go and toy with my deepest insecurities, things you've known about for ages. your knife went straight into my chest and then as the grand finale you keep choosing to pour salt into the wound. and instead of crawling away I stay because I can't bear to leave it all behind and forget you. and yeah, maybe I'm a hypocrite. maybe I did take you for granted and maybe I led you on because I see no other reason for this pain to be taking up everything inside me, unless I do deserve this. god, to think I could've tried to be happy for you. I could've been supportive. instead I get infinite sadness and bitterness and unimaginable pain. I wish this could all stop because I can't take it anymore. I don't have it in me. I wish I'd made different choices and even though I don't regret you I don't know how to move past this either. nothing has ever cut me this deep.

you can use this site to find out which phase you were born under, and this site to see if you were born on a blue moon!

they literally created a place where you can go and learn about something that really interests you and they fucked it up by inventing ASSIGNMENTS

so desperately sad and there's nothing I can do about anything

Remember in 2010 when Taio Cruz said "I throw my hands up in the air sometimes"? I appreciated his restraint. You can't just throw your hands up in the air whenever. There's a time and a place, and that time was 2010, and the place was the club.

theme for the night: counting and spelling

surely the conses wont quence

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(ʘ‿ʘ✿) “what you say ‘bout me”

(ʘ‿ʘ)ノ✿ “hold my flower”

big night for punctuation

i can’t kill myself my 10 followers need me