Being in love for a few days

For me loving someone wont take long, if you let me feel that you like me and have interest in me I can easily fall in love. it’s just that when I fall in love, i fall deeply and getting out is ready herd. Everything will be a mess and everything is like black and white. I can seem to be happy anymore and can’t seem to do anything,. This has happened to me in the past few days. I met someone and I am interested in that person but things went south after I said somethings and right now I am a mess. I tried doing what I do best which is making myself busy but I can’t seem to settle down my heart and brain is a mess. I hope that writing this will help me calm down and help me move on. I did not regret any single thing about that person and I hope that he will find someone that will make him happy. PS. a person who is madly in love with someone he just met online for a few days and a romance that last for a day.

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i die or I DIE

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dear you?

is it ok to die today?

yes, we just need to kill yourself right now and be dead.

This is really tiring, it's the same since I started working at your company. Your always and always fucking IDK, I am asking you a question with a yes or no answer and you said you don't know?

are you fucking kidding me?

idk, where to stand and do shit.

fuck you all!!

MORON!!

Can please someone comfort me and hug me tonight?

Can someone?

Please?

I just said to the person I like and love, please don't look for me anymore because you already have a family!

It really hurts I just want to be comforted tonight

why there are people who are so annoying, seeing you then after that leave like nothing happened!

I know it's part of living but it's still bugging me.

Why not just leave and say goodbye properly!

They can just say "I'm gonna miss you, see you soon!"

Geez it's bugging and had the feeling to go see that person but I'm afraid, afraid that I see that person's beloved.

It crushes my heart and it feels like shit! I know, I shouldn't be like this but it hurts and I hate it.

I feel the regret that the readiness im seeing was neglected by me, doing nothing, just letting go!

I don't want to be a disappointment but I am always.

Life is hard

I made a mistake.

again and again!

my anxiety is striking i don't know hat to do?

i can only write because im afraid of dying.

yeah I can die, I am laughing yet I'm not na.

want to talk to someone right now.

i feel like dying

worst comes to worst, I will die of suicide!

Day 60 of the month I feel so miserable

why can't they make an effort for me, well I have that person last time yet I don't feel anything for her.

Yes I appreciate it but I don't really know what to do

I hope I can someone to check me up??

I hope someone will call me!!!

I miss my Mom badly, hope your ok there Mom.

I just want to talk to you with a lot of things.

Mom it hurts so bad, can please sing me a lullaby??

You know how grateful I am getting a job you offer, but I know I am over stepping my boundaries for doing some shit.

Now I am letting go of everything the privilege that the company has given me and I know I owe them a lot.

I know you will be happy that I am doing this, removing myself in your company!!

I don't really care what others think of me because I'm a garbage in a sink hole, a frog in the dirty and smelly well and a pile shit in the street.

I have dreams and aspirations but I don't need them anymore, 😁😁😁.

All I just want is to escape reality and escape life.

All I can think of right now is killing myself, well soon! still looking for a place where people won't find me and people will know me.

I know I am being selfish, but I don't want any of this right now. I just want to sleep eternally!!

P.S. Your Friend

Once I'm gone! I gonna disappear in your life.