finally finished a first draft of the paper that has been tormenting me for days at work...feel like i can finally fucking breathe

It is what it is but like. Can it be something else

— Rainer Maria Rilke, from “I am praying again, Awesome One.”

my poem "Dark Matter" was just published in Issue 8 of Livina Press! i've been describing this one as a gay sci-fi love poem with horror undertones, but really it's just an ode to Delusion (the gayest emotion of all). available here.

starting tomorrow i will be a real person in this world

can you pick me up a true loves kiss from the corner store

I act like I'm fine but deep down I want a long, well-written love letter.

Carl Phillips, from “Civilization”, Then the War: And Selected Poems, 2007-2020

every week i go to events hoping to meet the love of my life and then i don’t. existence is truly unbearable

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Best Pali orgs to donate to at this time? Am thinking PCRF.

don't donate to orgs right now, donate to people. gazans need huge funds to evacuate to egypt, get treatment, buy food and other necessities. it is the most urgent and the best way your money can have the most impact.

here is fundsforgaza linktree full of verified gofundmes you can choose from

here is the operation olive branch spreadsheet full of gofundmes organized by different factors such as families, age, number of children, medical conditions as well as how close they are to meeting their goal etc

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UNRWA, ANERA and WCK have all been forced to pause or halt their humanitarian operations in Gaza because Israel has deliberately targeted any means of lifesaving aid to a starved, maimed, and tortured population of over 2 million Palestinians, almost half of which are children.

This has been broadcasted by Israel so that it sets the precedent of what is deemed permissible in the face of "international law". I said it before, it does not get any more obviously genocidal than this.

i was so fucking sad when i was 14 and now when i fold my laundry or see a pool of moonlight on the floor of my bedroom i know that miracles exist. i see love in everything. love sees everything in me too

It has gotten so much worse since the ICJ ordered a ceasefire. 19 Palestinians were killed by the IOF at the Al-Kuwait aid distribution point, while in the West Bank up to 7,800 Palestinians have been detained. There are reports of Israeli forces taking the bodies of massacred Palestinians, to do god knows what with them. Reports of up to 25 Palestinians killed in Rafah, per Let’s Talk Palestine. Reports of 4 Palestinians bulldozed to death in central Gaza. Reports of Gaza closer and closer to famine. It’s horrific. This really feels like Israel going out of its way to murder more and more Palestinians, just to prove that the ICJ order means nothing (which it doesn’t).

can you be utterly and madly in love with me for one second