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anti-endo-haven · 11 hours

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its regretevator!! its on roblox, and its currently our biggest hyperfixation rn

okay so basically the main point of the game is that you get on an elevator and it takes you to a bunch of different floors! they have a lot of different challenges you have to complete, like clicking a bunch of buttons, escaping a flood, etc. its rlly fun!

also theres npcs! they can get off at specific levels and enter the elevator with you, and if you have two or more they can talk to eachother!! our favorites are poob, lampert, and infected. fun fact! our signoff is actually inspired by two of the characters, infected and lampert!!

its not super grindy but also doesn’t have a main goal, besides just seeing how many floors you can get through.

also theres a bunch of lore with the npcs that’s currently being revealed, though that would take hours to explain fully. Akshkdhdjd sorry im totally infodumping

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It’s fine! Infodump away! We don’t play any Roblox games so it’s interesting to hear about them!

I hope the game is good!!

#🩷🔌#chatty chat chat

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anti-endo-haven · 12 hours

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THERE ARE NOSTALGIA HOLDERS????

.....looks at the alter we have that is literally just host at 9 years old

ohhhh nooooo

There can be any type of holder as long as your brain seems it necessary. :D

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anti-endo-haven · 13 hours

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Hopping on another anon, im just too good.. source mates is such a strange topic no matter where you go and there's so many communities that use that and actively harm recovering systems. AND if you tell them its anti recovery, they're like YOU'RE SUCH A DOWNER, YOU'RE A SYSMED, ETC ETC.

I've been at the ends of the traumatizing and toxic relationships, even FORCED relationships the sourcemate recon has brought upon communities.

I've also had my eren jaeger fictive be at the hate and attack, rebuttal of eremika shippers for seeing her sister as HER SISTER and not someone she wants to love. Like she's in a very committed relationship of 6 years, married with a kid and you were still worried about her seeing mikasa as her sister? weird!

Man, the sourcemate channels in some Discord servers… they do more damage than good and I know some alters might miss people from source, but you do not know the other person and trying to know someone simply just from source isn’t always going to work out.

I despise sourcecall channels with a passion for what they do to systems and alters in general. It’s terrible.

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anti-endo-haven · 14 hours

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pretty much, but she bought like 200 bucks worth of it

Oh… that’s not good…

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anti-endo-haven · 15 hours

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Before we realized we were a system, and after the inside out movie came out, when we were stressed/feeling bad the Jost at the time would imagine herself at a desk and talk to her brain to try and calm down, same with the SpongeBob clip of all the mini hims running an office in his brain. We look back at that now, just knowing we did that and not what was talked about/who was seen and go "huh that's... funny"

The SpongeBob one is such a relatable thing at this point for us. Even without an IW or being able to see it, it really shows how systems can be.

I’m glad that you can look back at those things and I’m glad that it’s helped, especially Inside Out being a helping hand with the board meeting room.

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anti-endo-haven · 16 hours

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Lmao imagine being so unhappy with yourself and your relationship status that you have to go try and ruin other peoples relationships? imagine, on top of that, doing it all on anon? Get a life nerd /nay

anyways here’s some silly stuff with the babes because we need happy positive sturf here!

(Context: you get none)

This was so long ago for what this ask is towards so there’s also no other context :3c

But yeah. Having people try and ruin others relationships is just a waste of time and it doesn’t accomplish anything. Especially when both parties are heavily anxious with severe separation anxiety so.

Yeah.

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anti-endo-haven · 16 hours

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im getting fuckin bullied n shit bc i asked you what an endo is

I’m sorry :(

I know that the best you can do is block and report accounts for the harassment that they do.

You don’t deserve the harassment or bullying. You asked a simple question, one from a place you potentially trusted.

I’m sorry that you’re being met with behavior like that. You don’t deserve it.

🫂

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anti-endo-haven · 18 hours

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Our little bought a bunch of pediasure because she.formed wben we like lived on thag help

Those are like the uh… protein shakes right?

We love protein shakes a little too much. Always makes us sick with how many drink. But they’re good.

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anti-endo-haven · 19 hours

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The main system: wondering if we're polyfragmented

Us: 👀

-🦊🧨 of 🦊🌐 from 🌈🎥

Hehehehe

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anti-endo-haven · 20 hours

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silly little thing before we knew we were a system we used to use this “headache trick” and the trick was visualizing a room (which i know, now, is our front room 😭) and getting all the “dust bunnies" out of the room and it would get rid of our headaches which I've realized now is just kicking people out of front LMAO — 💉

I just imagine sweeping the floors and smacking everyone with a broom. I don’t know why, but I do.

I’m glad it helped you, though! Sounds like something that would absolutely be good for the headaches of crowded front.

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anti-endo-haven · 21 hours

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tfw you split a nostalgia holder because the nostalgic feelings are stressing you the fuck out but after a while even xe can't handle it 😭

- 👁️»☠️

Hopefully things get better for the lot of you. And the nostalgia can become less stressful.

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anti-endo-haven · 22 hours

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hihi!!!

new update for our favorite game just came out!! gonna go play it now, our host is super excited!

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Oooh!! I hope it’s enjoyable!!

If you don’t mind sharing, what game is it? You don’t have to answer :)

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anti-endo-haven · 22 hours

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I just went through my block list and realized someone blocked a heck ton of pro/neutral endo/nontraumagenic systems and actual endo/nontraumagenic systems.

Who the heck did it? I wanna congratulate them.

Also, I love this blog. You are doing great ^^

[ And if it's not too much and not taken, can my system claim "🧸🩷🍫" ? ]

I’m glad that they helped you get some more peace of mind while on Tumblr :)

I’m glad you love the blog! I appreciate the kind words!!! It means a lot to me to read.

You may!

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anti-endo-haven · 22 hours

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send me good luck, we're going to see our family for the first time since realizing we're a system and it's unsafe to be out to our family here's to hoping i stay fronting 🤞im th least aggressive/argumentative alter in our system and it's better for us if i stay fronting dkdhdkdnfn but ive never met these people so this will b interesting

Good luck! I hope everything goes well for you!!

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anti-endo-haven · 24 hours

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vent incoming, no tws I think

My mum keeps telling me I'm having "tantrums" when I'm like. Having breakdowns. I don't know why she's suddenly acting like nothing's wrong as if we haven't tried getting me an assessment for autism. I don't know how to convey that to her though because I absolutely hate talking to people

Mm.. I’d say open communication if it’s possible. Telling her how you feel and that it isn’t a tantrum, but a breakdown. Your sensory is processing too much at one time and is leading to those breakdowns and being told “it’s just a tantrum” is making it worse as that’s not what it is to you.

You can also see if she’ll be willing to listen to what tends to cause those breakdowns, what she and you can do together to help fix it, and other things as to make sure that you’re able to be comfortable and have a safe environment for yourself.

I’m not entirely sure what all can help. But I wish you luck and that things get better.

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anti-endo-haven · 1 day

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I GOT A NEW BIKE YESTERDAY SHINING!!!

i've been waiting to get a bike for sooooo long and dude dude dude i so wanna ride it to work today but guess what

I DONT HAVE A BIKE LIGHT BECAUSE WALMART FUCKING RAN OUT 😭😭😭 AND I WORK LATE TONIGHT AND DON'T FEEL LIKE. GETTING RUN OVER

(also bit of a vent past this part)

speaking of which i was biking home from walmart with like, oh my god 3 pounds on my back i was carrying two cartons, and i got to this really dangerous part in my route where there wasnt anywhere i could ride but directly on the road right? and i was riding AGAINST THE WIND right-

two cars pass, and im like ok i go now. i cross the street and theres a third one i didnt see and i came so so close to hitting it and aosidjsjhd. FEAR!!! im not very observant in general (shstem shit and adhd) so it's very scary for me . so like on the one hand i REALLY wanna make that 3 mile trip to work on my bike on the other. um.

(vent over)

but yeah i dont wanna like leave it ar work bc someone might steal it and i feel like if i ask to keep it in thw back they might tell me no ??? and then yknow i'd be out of a bike for a bit because i'd have to get a ride to get it back and. it would just be better to wait til i get a light BUT GOD I WANT TO SO BADDDDD I HAVE THE ZOOMIES

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Congratulations on the new bike!

Make sure to get a bike light when you’re able and to dress with bright and reflective colours if you do bike at night. A reflective vest is also good to have.

If you’re worried that someone might take it while you’re working, keep it safe and make sure to ask if it’s okay if you do bike to work and back home. Get a good bike lock so it’s secure, even if it might not be the best. It’s always better to be safe than sorry.

I hope that you can also bike more in your free time!

Bikes are fun to have :3

#🪽🪻#chatty chat chat

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anti-endo-haven · 1 day

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@sselling anon

When i was like 12 i did that it, but i genuinely believed it was real, when i realized it wasn't i was wayyyy too far into it and couldn't just stop because i had a long prepaid backlog and after i finished that i just said i had personal things happen and made a new account

I’m glad that you got away from it now, though.

It seems like something that will always get you in too deep with the endo community, for a variety of reasons. But I am glad that you were able to break away once you noticed what you could.

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