anjthewanderer
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Chadwick Boseman was a hero that everyone needed. He brought light to those around him despite of having to face cancer for the span of 4 years. Even so, he continued to be a sort of light that brought warmth and joy to everyone's hearts.
Rest well. Rest in power.
LONG LIVE THE KING FOREVER 🖤
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What am I in the eyes of most people — a nonentity, an eccentric, or an unpleasant person — somebody who has no position in society and will never have; in short, the lowest of the low. All right, then — even if that were absolutely true, then I should one day like to show by my work what such an eccentric, such a nobody, has in his heart. That is my ambition, based less on resentment than on love in spite of everything, based more on a feeling of serenity than on passion. Though I am often in the depths of misery, there is still calmness, pure harmony and music inside me. I see paintings or drawings in the poorest cottages, in the dirtiest corners. And my mind is driven towards these things with an irresistible momentum.
Vincent Van Gogh
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An open letter
To whom this may concern,
Hello heart, it's been 2,387 days since you were diagnosed ill by some doctor. Ever since, you have given me a hard time. It took me 6 years to cope up with you. 6 years of handling you. 6 years of making people understand. 6 years of tantrums, of pain, of tears, of agony and of loneliness.
But in the last 7 months, I've had epiphanies and series of rethinking. Life's worth of living, is to love ones self; and I did. I have loved myself. Pampered myself, making myself shine out, achieving, stepping up, having fun. I thought I outshined the negativity of my heart, but when death draws near. I rattle.
The student council president; the character I built to be someone that I thought would be strong.
That's what I thought. In the anime series I watch, "Kaichou" is always strong, always reliable, always responsible. I made a character to push myself to do greater things. But here's the reality:
"Angelica wanted purpose." - Thats a reality I will always uphold to cover up my limitations. I'm sick, I'm broken, and pathetic by nature. I could never be of some use to anyone in this state. I was left by a lover, by my family, by friends and had to go through life alone. No one wanted me. They didn't want to be the ones who's break me yet they have broken me several times. I wanted to be worthy of something, to leave a mark and be known to be someone other than a living corpse.
The pain is present and it's hard; and as I grasp the humane part of me, it's scary. Keep living they say, I have never been more confused as to continue doing that or not. I will, in practicality, because that's what is expected of me. But my soul dies and maybe already dead. I am nothing but a living corpse. Broken and afraid. People say, keep going, you still have dreams. I do. I really do. But no career, no place, not a single thing can ever be enough of a reason to live. The greatest wish I can ask is love. That one thing that I lacked since birth. That one thing I try getting on my own, but end up hurting myself. And as situations unveil in my life, reality has spoken that no one can dare to love something so broken, not because it's not whole but rather the pain of seeing one thing break. And one thing I hated, is embedding pain into someone, and it's ironic how I would never give pain even though I greatly lack love itself.
Because my life's principle is this:
"Always be kind"
No matter if I'm sad
Depressed to the point of suicide
Despaired to the point of giving up.
Always be kind.
Now heart, you are broken and u seem to be giving up.
But stay kind.
No pain is enough of a reason to start hating.
Sadness and anger are two different things.
Cry, smile and be kind. Because even though ur broken, you will always be better because of it.
With love,
Angelica
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Isolation Vacation
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Anxiety
When life leaves u alone for a split second of time
The numbness of the dark whispers in your ear
Letting you think things over. A lot of things
And that's when u realize,it's definitely a horror
One day ,you'll lose everything
Every moment you had with someone
Every song u ever sung to start the day
Everything.
And when that day comes,you no longer feel the agonizing despair of life
But what hurts is that you'll no longer feel that one glimpse of....light
That light u kept precious through all the sadness
The loneliness
The shittiness of life
That light that made you giggle in the middle of the night
The light that kept you up dreaming while wide awake
That light that filled you when darkness was in sight
We, the strays,the forgotten, the lost children.
We have nothing to lose but this light
And even if we say, we'll die someday,
This light makes us frightened to let go of life
It makes things,how do I say this... "Bearable" for us
Everyday, every second of this life
We find ourselves to have this right
Of happiness we are guaranteed to have
When we first breath the poison of this world
Now, we might not seem like it
The happy faces of society, certainly not
But with this light, it's one less sad person that you will find.
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