Headcanon where ganke and miles 42 know each other since before the academy but ganke gets in and miles doesn't and its just very bittersweet because miles knows he should let go of ganke to keep him safe but he just can't bring himself to do it.
[And I wrote it because I couldn't help myself]
Weekends
It was a Saturday when they got their letters, both practically jumping with excitement as they ripped open the envelope seal. Miles had ran straight to gankes after snatching the letter right out the mailmans hand. They'd been planning this for months now, going to visions academy together, staying in the same dorm, just the two of them where they didn't have to worry about people and circumstances.
But as they sat there on gankes dining room table and read through the letter, the bubbling excitement slowly dwindled and settled into a pit in miles' stomach. He did not get in.
The smile on gankes mothers face as she hovered over him to get a glimpse of the letter told a different story.
It was Saturday again when ganke finished packing his bags, exactly a week from getting the letters. They were at the train station, his parents getting the luggage into the compartment, and Miles tagged along with the promise to help. He had told ganke that he was fine, that it wasn't a big deal, that he'll try again next year. But ganke, as stubborn as he is, obviously did not believe a word that came out of his mouth.
Miles had always thought ganke worried too much. Miles also thought that he did not deserve to cared about this much.
There was a divot in the long red brick walls of the train station, a small corner where no one could see them but they could see all the hustle and bustle of the people coming in and out.
The noise didn't bother him. Because the world fell silent every time he was with ganke. Like nothing else mattered, just them and the moment.
Today though, today was different because as they stood in their hole in the wall, miles couldn't bring himself to look up at ganke
"It's only like a 15-minute train ride, so... not that far, " ganke said, but miles would much rather focus on the birthmark on ganke's thumb. Had it always been there?
"And I'll come back every weekend," ganke said again. Miles only squeezed his hand tighter. How had he never noticed it before
"And I'll call! I'll call every day. I promise, " Maybe it was for the better. Maybe he should've never noticed it , maybe then he would actually be able to listen to what Ganke was saying.
"Anything you need miles," Ganke continues, voice softer than velvet. He knows Miles isn't listening. "I'm only a phone call away"
Maybe this is for the better. He goes away, and he stays safe. Away from this place, away from the prowler...
'Away from me.'
"Miles," ganke says again. It takes some strength to pull his hand out of miles' grip. His eyes are still glued to Ganke's hand, and ganke has to cup his cheeks in both hands to finally make him look up. "im not leaving you."
And it hurts because he should. He should leave Miles. But they've had this argument before, and it's already taking everything in Miles to not choke on his words and break down in tears right there.
"Yeah, I know," he finally replies, his voice cracks, and it's embarrassing because he knows ganke heard it too. As much as he tries to keep his expression blank, he knows his eyes have already betrayed him.
Ganke doesn't say a word. He just leans down and presses a soft chaste kiss on his lips and miles practically melts into a pool right there in his arms.
Ganke can be so mean sometimes. He makes Miles want to be selfish. How can he let go of the one person who makes the hole in his heart feel like it's disappeared?
Miles is selfish.
But ganke is cruel .
He rests his forhead on top of Miles' . Miles squeezes his eyes shut.
"I'll never leave you," he repeats. "I promise, Miles"
Don't make stupid promises
"Never"
Don't be so cruel
"BOYS TIME TO GO!" they hear gankes dad shout into the crowd
Miles steps away first. Inhales a sharp breath before reaching out to fix ganke's blazer collar
"I know you're going to a stupid nerd school, but try not to become a total loser, yeah?" He says, trying to ease away the pressure they'd unintentionally created
Ganke chuckles in surprise. "Not you talking ?!Mr. 1st place in every years science fair, " he teases, throwing a light punch on miles' shoulder as they walk out their corner and onto the platform.
And Miles laughs. He lets ganke fill his heart again. Why can't he be selfish for just a little while longer?
As he watches ganke walk down the platform and onto the train, there's a sudden lump in his throat. He needs to say something, but he doesn't think he can
"Ganke!" He calls out, the boy turns around. one foot on the platform, the other on the train, "I..." he tries, but his breath gets hitched in his throat
Ganke looks at him, searching , hoping, begging for him to finish
Miles knows he should say it. But he also knows he won't
"I'll see you on Saturday"
For a second, it feels like Gankes smile falters, and it's painful to watch, but he smiles nonetheless. He nods his head and looks back at Miles one last time
"Saturday!"
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AU where Miles and Wiles are twins where Miles goes to Brooklyn vision and Wiles goes to Midtown and one week where Miles gets like his foot broken bcz of spider man business the day before a super important test and has Wiles take his place (after whining for 10 hours) because Twins and all and Wiles does and then gets super engrossed and interested in this genius tech nerd that studies with Miles and suddenly the day after the test Wiles is very willing to go in Miles' place again and Miles is fine but like a little bit weirded out because thats the first time his brother has been this willing to do anything he asked (plus he was feeling better already thanks to enhanced healing so there was no need) but still took the day to relax and just laze around.
Then weekend comes and his brother is like "Yoooo how about we switch for the whole of the next week yaknow- you go to Midtown and I go brooklyn" and Miles is skeptical, like super fucking skeptical because since when and what is happening but he agrees cuz is sounds fun asf so they do.
End of the next week Miles understands why Wiles wanted to switch when fucking Ganke comes thru the door after school on the next friday holding hands with his brother lmao
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