I'd really like to get to know you again

- Her

Blue Screen

Staying awake is power

It's our form of immortality 

It's death lurking around the corner

Weighing us down

But we say no

Just one more hour

A Friend To Some

I am friends with you here

But nowhere else

A Friend To All

I am a narcissist

Not in the way you may be imagining

In a deadly way

In a way that makes friends with everyone

In a way that makes you feel warm

In a way that makes you smile

I know that I am the reason

So I feed

Honestly

I am sick and I refuse any medicine

I sleep too little and scratch at myself when awake

I have contacts in my phone that serve no purpose

I have no conclusion

This is an admittance of defeat

Anchor

I know you’re awake

Whether at home or having a night out

Making decisions for yourself

I should be there

Weighing you down

Physics

She is just within arm's length

An inch, a breath, a blink away

But the gravity

Oh how it pulls

A Friend To None

To me, everyone is a mirror

And I look different in each one

It's strategic

It's disingenuous

It's who I am

It's survival

A Tragedy

It's really just physics at this point. She’s like gravity. Whatever force there is out there, whether it be the ‘universe’ or god or the planets or just plain fate; there is something just as powerful, pushing back. It may be any of these entities fighting against themselves in order to keep the cosmic balance, or it may be my own free will that has to go against and antagonize anything above me. For every action, for every force, I am its equal opposite. The idea of a soulmate is such a comfort. They're out there, on their way to you and you to them. Taking their time but they're on their way. The idea of a soulmate is such a comfort… until you think about it for just a second or two too long. Whatever force it may be, that is drawing the two of you together, there is an equal and opposite force pulling you apart. And at that point, it's a coin toss. Maybe it's karma for all the nasty things you did or said in your younger years. Maybe it's god deciding that this isn't for you and the plan already set. Maybe the planets didn't align. Or possibly the most tragic of all, both of you just let it slip. Both of you made one too many wrong decisions. And now you're here. In a place where too much has happened to try again. Where too much is happening to ignore. Where too much will happen for you to get a real chance. And yet, even with ALL that has happened, not enough has changed.

i like it when you tell me what’s wrong

Why? So you can help me?

So i can listen

- now vs then

I'm at 7% and I need to make a phone call that they told me not to make

- Contact

Sometimes the moon gets to work early so it can see the sun

- Kronos

Do you hate having dreams about me

Do you even still

- Insomniac

I see you've made your bed

Will you lie in it?

You don't have to you know

We can stay up a little longer

Tell me about your day again

I just did laundry

We can change the sheets

Make the bed again

We can lie in it together

- Pride

… and all i want to do

Is stay home

In bed

Tucked away

Until we’re allowed to try again

- Rot