“The world has told you lies about how small you are. You will look back on this time and say, ‘I had it all, but I didn’t even know it. I was at the center, I could breathe in happiness, I could swim to the moon. I had everything I needed.

Heather Havrilesky

You are pushing people until they turn on you as if that’s your real goal. You are hurting yourself and using other people to do it.

Richard Thompson

I realize now that I don't get bored, I get fucking scared. It's a defense mechanism and a deep routed one at that. I guard myself by feeling this way, by feigning indifference without feigning it at all. It's there but at a subconscious level so I really have to stop and study myself if I am to notice it. I do it because I am more than half expecting the guy to leave so I get there first to avoid disappointment. What if I am that girl who is invariably worried that she is about to get broken up with, the one who thinks she’s not good enough for the boy? The one who is perpetually on a probation period, wondering if this is the day he’s going to tell her, ”it’s just not working out.” “You’re not the right fit.

ME

About last night

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Stained salt window

Oh.

Gia Carangi by Andrea Blanch