A Decade of AJ Lee (2010-2019)

theajmendez: I’ve been 40 since I was 10.

theajmendez:  Writing for a new project and it’s going really well.

theajmendez:  The face of delirious glee after surviving my first real workout in over a month. Had to take a fitness break because my energy levels were low during a really long depressive cycle. It’s a totally normal, manageable part of my mental health experience, but I’m still learning to adjust to it. Depression makes it hard to find motivation, but the irony is exercise helps me recover and feel better. So I have to balance taking a restorative break with getting back into the gym for invigorating adrenaline and healing endorphins. If you’re feeling down, don’t rush yourself or beat yourself up. Just know when you’re ready, exercise can actually be a source of energy and comfort. AND muscle memory is legit cuz my abs were like “hiya buddy we’re still here, take your time girl” and I was like “thank you for your patience and resilience through all the comfort carbs lemme take a pic real quick” and then we high-fived but I really just smacked myself in the stomach.

theajmendez: Thanks to #BeyondFest for having us and playing the Mister’s movie #GirlontheThirdFloor! It was unreal. I was equal parts proud, terrified, and supremely grossed out. Also yes my handbag is a sandwich and I will not shut up about it because snacks are clearly very important to me.

theajmendez: Most of my twenties actually...

theajmendez: I had a rough mental health day yesterday. But I talked about it openly, took the space I needed, worked from bed all day, and did not even think about putting a bra on. And today I feel rested and ready to GET IT GET IT in the gym. The adrenaline and endorphins always make me feel better. (My mister had this shirt made for me because we have a running joke where we loudly shout “GET IT GET IT” to hype each other up when we need encouragement, like before a hard workout, or an important meeting, or before eating a donut, and I’m never taking it off.)

theajmendez: I’ve eaten ice cream five days in a row and it feels like a real accomplishment. Which I guess deserves it’s own reward. A reward like ice cream.

theajmendez: Writing is easy everything is fine I’M FINE

theajmendez:  The only reward for anything is food. -Tina Fey...and me several times a day after accomplishing the most menial of tasks.

theajmendez:  Stupid beautiful sunrise