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abandonedpie · 17 days

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bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

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abandonedpie · 18 days

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In the sleepless wake, how long has it been since error died to fresh going to the psych ward? (Like has it been weeks? Months) I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense I just woke up

Nah, it makes sense! I had to check my old notes (where I actually assigned dates to the events throughout the fic), and according to that, a month and ten days passed between Error's death and Fresh landing himself in the hospital. So unless I ended up writing something that contradicts this after I first wrote those notes, there's your oddly specific answer. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#pietalks #TBDspoilers #TBDchat #TSWchat #xxwish-bonexx

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abandonedpie · 3 months

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reblog to cast level 5 spell: everyone who reads this gets a full night sleep

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abandonedpie · 3 months

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Little bit of a vent, not that serious but slightly heavier than you'd expect from the subject.

TL;DR designing an ACNH island is suffering and I took that personally

So my island has been in a WIP state since its creation. Got fairly far with implementing my plans, and I've worked on pieces of it here and there, but recently, I was inspired to redesign the whole thing (again). No longer liked all the ideas I had liked before, and overall felt it was lacking. With some struggle, I started coming up with new ideas that I felt good about.

But the thing that has slowed me down the most? That has me already doubting or even hating my brand new ideas?

Paths. It always comes down to the paths.

Custom paths? Default paths? Both have pros and cons to consider. Fellow ACNH players are likely familiar with these issues: loss of footstep sounds, limited design slots to work with (is it worth using 12+ slots for a single path border?), having to make every design from scratch (no Online for me), lines of grass left between paths/inclines/buildings...

And I can't decide. I can't find an answer. Whatever I try, whatever I imagine, I don't like the result. I've hit a wall, and that wall is my own perfectionism. Clearly there is no perfect solution, and I have to compromise to progress—"finished, not perfect" and all that—but I don't want to compromise the vision I have for my island, even though I know that vision is unattainable.

I just want to have an island I'm happy with. And it feels like no matter what I do with it, I'll never be satisfied. I've seen such beautiful pictures and videos of other people's islands, and while they inspire me and fuel my creativity, they also raise my standards for my own island because I know it could be so much better.

I want to be able to settle for "good enough." But it feels like trying to paint a rainbow with one or two colors missing or not quite the right shade. Maybe I can make something pretty, but it's not what I envisioned or want.

So I think, let's just come up with something different. There are plenty of designs I would like just as much or more, right? I'm already struggling because I like multiple exclusive aesthetics/layouts/etc. and I can't fit them all on one island. But...paths are kinda omnipresent, and that means I have to accept them being substandard. Unless? I've considered using minimal to no paths, but I can't imagine that working for me. I'm not going for full-on natural forestcore or whatever (and even that wouldn't look its best without dirt paths, right?).

I guess I might've made this into a bigger deal than it needs to be. At this point, I feel tired and stuck and hopeless, and part of me wants to let it go. It's just a game. But I don't want to give up and leave my island a mess again. For a short while, I was excited to create, thinking I could shape my little land into something great, something I could walk through with a smile and maybe feel proud of. And now I wonder if that's really possible. There must be something I can do, something I'd like, but I don't know how to find it. I'm honestly having trouble focusing on it right now.

Seeking inspiration is a double-edged sword. As nice as other people's islands look, I know a lot of pictures are shared with filters, and even those that aren't...well, seeing images and videos is different than walking through your own island day after day.

I could go into the game's flaws and limitations, but this is what we've got. And it's not all bad. There's potential. The problem is my own inner critic, and I don't know how to get past it.

The best part is that I've been trying to fight this perfectionism with the game from the beginning, when I last restarted my island and named it Wabisabia after the term wabi-sabi, the Japanese ideal/aesthetic centered on transience and imperfection. You can see how well that's going for me ha ha ha! Even if I want to embrace it in theory, it's not so easy to break through the perfectionism cemented inside me.

Anyway, yeah. Back to agonizing over my island I guess. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#pietalks #the woes of being a perfectionist #current mood: family guy death pose #eagerly anticipating the next animal crossing game #I hope for one to release late this year or maybe next year #they will surely improve on New Horizons. right? ...right?#please heed the pleas of your players #obviously you can't please everyone but consider the things most players want added/changed #assuming the next game doesn't take the series in a vastly different direction

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abandonedpie · 3 months

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New Crow Time 🐦‍⬛🦊🌟

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abandonedpie · 3 months

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#reblog #honkai star rail #hsr #jing yuan #yesss

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abandonedpie · 4 months

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Reblog to give the person you reblogged this from motivation to work on their WIPs.

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abandonedpie · 4 months

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and who in the world is 'sans undertale'?

#reblog #undertale #goner sans #oh cool!#unrelated to my goner sans #but still had to reblog #a li'l sad and spooky #dat reflection tho #this got me thinking about my old comic a bit #oh the plans I had for it :(

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abandonedpie · 5 months

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This is Remiel, one of my ACNH OCs!

Some info about him:

Birthday: January 27; Age: early to mid-thirties

Aquarius, Enneagram Type 5

He/him, cisgender, bisexual (inside an open closet; he doesn't really care if people know, but he hasn't felt the need to tell anyone yet)

Holds a passion for home design. Has an...unconventional design sense?

Said passion for design is rivaled only by his passion for gyroids. Brewster's got nothing on Remiel's collection. He loves them like they're his own children. No you don't understand, at the time of typing this, he has exactly 100 displayed in his house and 190 in his storage. And his collection grows. Always. Nothing can stop it except the physical limitations imposed by house/storage space

Enjoys music; favorite genres include classical and jazz. Plays piano (since childhood) and saxophone (started learning in his twenties). Favorite K.K. Slider songs: K.K. Sonata, K.K. Jazz and K.K. Moody

He also likes fine art, fancy/expensive furniture and clothes, and material things in general. Grew up in a rich household, but was not particularly spoiled

Poor social skills. Blunt to the point of rudeness. He's the type who will walk away from someone he doesn't want to talk to, not even bothering to come up with an excuse or pretend he didn't notice them. Despite his general honesty, he struggles to open up about his deeper feelings. Secretly wants a friend and/or partner, but has more or less given up on connecting with anyone

It's okay, he has his gyroids for company. They're more fun to hang out with anyway: great listeners, expressive, and funny to boot! He loves dancing with them.

Aside from gyroids, he also prefers animals over most people (and I don't mean Animal Crossing villagers. They're more people than animal. Still preferable to humans though). Especially fond of birds (and birdsong). Might like to keep a bird as a pet, but worries that the gyroids perpetually accompanying music in every room of his house might bother it

Intensely uncomfortable with silence. Could you tell

Unrelated fun fact: he lives beside the island's graveyard

Cannot cook (see image #3). Usually buys takeout or premade food (may still burn it if it requires heating up), sometimes eats out. Wants to learn to cook edible meals but has never been able to get the hang of it. Believes he might be cursed

He has a gym set up in his house for regular workouts and yoga. Needs music (and the support of his gyroids) or won't do it

While he isn't one for interacting with fellow adults, he is better with children. The older he gets, the more he wishes to have kids of his own. He has considered adoption multiple times, but in the end, he faces too many doubts about his ability to be a good father.

I welcome questions and comments about Remiel! Not only will it give me the chance to talk more about him, but it might help me develop him more as a character :)

More OCs to be introduced soon, maybe?

#OCs #remiel #animal crossing #ACNH #acnh oc #piedraws #fun with expressions #how do art style???#for this I combined some AC style with my own style. whatever that is #who knows how consistent I'll be with the style for other OCs. or even just Remi. these already feel inconsistent #should I draw them more chibi? but will different body types come across well enough?#man I don't know what I'm doing #besides having fun!#what really enhances that instant noodles pic is that I was listening to (a cover of) Hallelujah while drawing it

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abandonedpie · 5 months

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It's been so long since I last digitally colored any of my pencil art, manually with my computer's trackpad, that I'd forgotten how tedious and painful it is

#pietalks #about art #I've tried to find more efficient ways #but so far nothing really gives me the results I want #I want to preserve the details and that soft look and the precision that comes with manually tracing each edge #but ow my hand :')

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abandonedpie · 5 months

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DOCTOR WHO • S05E10 ❝Vincent and the Doctor❞

#reblog #literally thought about this post within an hour or so before opening Tumblr and finding it on my dash

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abandonedpie · 6 months

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Karamatsu and identity

[Spoilers for Osomatsu-san: The Movie]

I've been thinking about Karamatsu and how he never relaxes, always putting on airs...

I feel like when the brothers all split up in high school, they all reacted in different ways to losing their identities as a group. With Karamatsu, his, hmmm, self-discovery journey, doesn't really take off properly though, while most of the others' did (quality of the results of those discoveries not being guaranteed). Sure, he's a bit of a crybaby, it's been noted by other fans before that he's been one in Osomatsu-kun as well

And he did dabble in acting of course, something I will touch on later...

But most of the time, he was just left to be this sad, lonely, anxiety-ridden boy who struggles to even talk with other people.

Barely having an identity beyond that. Almost stagnant, unable to move forward.

He was perfectly fine fooling around with his brothers when they still got long!

But on his own, he never had the courage to do any of that.

He never wanted to accept that they all drifted apart, and in doing so, he never really went out and tried to reinvent and discover himself as passionately as the others did.

The joke is that "Kara" means "Empty" because he's empty-headed, but it could also mean that he's empty on the inside, because he never found himself after they all split apart. He doesn't know who he is anymore, so after the big fight, the one that he was certain was why he had "regrets"

He finally realised that he was on his own.

And that's when he started to try and find himself. Or rather, started to act. Telling himself he's great, confident and fashionable, because hey... Acting makes you feel like you're somebody else. It gives you confidence you normally don't have, and you can take a break from being somebody you don't really want to be, or maybe... Somebody you don't know who they are anymore.

Karamatsu is always acting, or he's serious, there's rarely an in-between. He never relaxes, truly. He never shuts off. Either he's a fool, or he's a big brother, taking on the responsibility and act of one, in order to solve a tense situation. If you tell him to be himself, he'd probably tell you he is. And maybe he truly believes that he is, too. But I think that he lost a big part of himself in high school, and if you strip away his role as a big brother, and the exaggerated acting and airs he puts on, he's not quite sure that there's somebody in there anymore. Maybe he's truly "empty".

#reblog #osomatsu-san #karamatsu #character analysis

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abandonedpie · 6 months

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A place to relax

#osomatsu-san #osomatsu san #ichimatsu #karamatsu #iromatsu #18!ichimatsu #18!karamatsu #yanagita #piedraws #comic #finally finished this #it was one panel away from completion for almost two months oof #unsatisfied with a lot of it but oh well!#finished not perfect #and I do like how some of it turned out #gave up on my plans of formatting it into actual pages #“short comic” I said. well. it's a oneshot #just a random idea I had #hope you like it :)

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abandonedpie · 7 months

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My dad and I once had a disagreement over him using the adage "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

I said, "That's just not true. Sometimes what doesn't kill you leaves you brittle and injured or traumatized."

He stopped and thought about that for a while. He came back later, and said, "It's like wood glue."

He pointed to my bookshelf, which he helped me salvage a while ago. He said, "Do you remember how I explained that, once we used the wood glue on them, the shelves would actually be stronger than they were before they broke?"

I did.

"But before we used the wood glue, those shelves were broken. They couldn't hold up shit. If you had put books on them, they would have collapsed. And that wood glue had to set awhile. If we put anything on them too early, they would have collapsed just the same as if we'd never fixed them at all. You've got to give these things time to set."

It sounded like a pretty good metaphor to me, but one thing I did pick up on was that whatever broke those shelves, that's not the thing that made them stronger. That just broke them. It was being fixed that made them stronger. It was the glue.

So my dad and I agreed, what doesn't kill you doesn't actually make you stronger, but healing does. And if you feel like healing hasn't made you stronger than you were before, you're probably not done healing. You've got to give these things time to set.

#reblog

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abandonedpie · 7 months

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Hey abandon pie! I drew some fanart of The sleepless wake and the breathing dead and I was wondering if I can show it to you.

Oh yeah! I'd be happy to see it. :)

#pietalks #anonymous

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abandonedpie · 7 months

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I feel like my writing is teeming with too many glances and stares and gazes, too much squinting and glaring and gawking, but in my defense...

*slaps eyes of characters* these bad boys can fit so much meaning in them

#pietalks #writing #writer problems #they're called the windows of the soul for a reason #but can I maybe find other ways to convey the same meaning #without bringing up eyes every one or two paragraphs?#or multiple times in a single paragraph???#girl help

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abandonedpie · 7 months

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this post about ugly engagement rings made me think of asgore

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#reblog #undertale #toriel #asgore #toriel's face is PRICELESS

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