hey everyone. long boring text incoming to tell you about where i've been lol (tl;dr ver. : college, stress, mental health, art block.) as for the long version

srry for the long period of silence. i don't try to talk about shit or vent online bc i don't like looking like a gloomy sack of ass but i guess it's better than going about my usual unhealthy cycle of going online for a little bit and make things look ok then just out of nowhere vanish out of the scene and make shit look more suspicious. i feel upset that i make people believe that they bother me or don't interest me or that i'm ignoring art just because, in reality i actually haven't been able to gather the motivation to draw for the entire duration i was off.

i'm also tired of focusing on college and studying just so i can feel like i'm not inferior to the other students getting good grades when in reality i'm just fucking failing all together in a lot of tests and shit which sucks. i've put off so many passion projects, hobbies, and all just so i can try and focus on "building myself a future/not get distracted by the wrong things". i'm really frustrated of living this unfulfilling life that depresses me when art and other forms of hobbies are the only thing i have rn to distract me from being so fucking burnt out and upset.

in general my mental health has also been acting up but i'm also working on myself and i'm really happy i've finally started to basically focus on myself and my happiness instead of basically living for the expectations of other people and doing whatever i can to not disappoint those i know (especially my parents). i guess a step to also do that is let you guys actually know whats up (at least the more general shit of whats going on) i'm not sure if i did it correctly or if it just sounds like i'm talking out of my ass.

thank you if you've read this text, i genuinely appreciate it and i appreciate all the comments, likes, reblogs and all the love you've been giving to my art. you guys have no idea how happy and motivated its made me and the confidence i have for my art has risen so much. thank you once again and i hope all of you have a great day.

I decided to draw @falling-moonshadow 's OC just for fun ^^

sorry to everyone for not posting anything in a while . . been in an extreme burn out for maybe 5-6 months now, and it only just affected me severely recently err,, i'm still going to work on the requests given to me . . . it's just been rlly difficult trying to live up to expectations and always go further and beyond just to not feel like i'm inferior to other ppl, especially academically but it only took me now to realize that i'm essentially just digging my own grave with the way i've been treating myself .

on a short side not, i might try uploading more oc content even though i know it won't get as much attraction, i suppose . i have pretty wacky ideas i might wanna share w yall but idk maybe not i'm not rlly confident w my work. . . thats all tho, hope everyone's fine ^^

HI I LOVE YOU AND APPRECIATE YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY!!!! <333

eeep thank you ! ! ! hope u have a good one too ♪(^∇^*)

have you receive my request or you’re closing them? T_T

nono, i didn't close them yet ! ! super sorry ;;0;; just been awfully busy with uni but I'll get back to finishing them super soon ! I'm trying to go for a "first come, first serve" sorta deal so it'll take a while before finishing everyone's since I have 5 requests to get to ^ ^;

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She's looking trought you...

...where did you go?

Magnificent (absolutely perfect) colorization by @2d0rn0t2d

(She'd be stuck in black and white without your help.)

CHECKIT OUT GUYS MORE ETICALB !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MORE ETIHW AND KCALB

could you draw kogasa tatara?

also your art is so pretty!!

kogasa's one of mah fav touhous so this was an absolute treat ^_^ ! ! (soz this took like weeks for me to post TT_TT"" for some reason drawing a decent kogasa was hard somehow)

EDIT: AAA I FORGOT TO SAY THANK YOU FOR THE COMPLIMENT TY TY ! ! ! <3 <3

oc belongs to @falling-moonshadow hopefully i did her justice ^_^ ! ! hope u all check mr. moonshadow's stuff out because this goofball is such an adorable creature, and the other art a treat to look at o(〃＾▽＾〃)o ! ! !

made this a few days ago. i promise i'll get back to the requests bc i'm rlly excited about one!!

Love your draws! since youre taking requests could you do Kosuzu or Chimata please?

tysm :D ! ! i made a smol chimata sketch on the side, alsoo thought itd b rather silly for kosuzu to have that trope of glasses = tiny eyes n also freckles heh !

Um, hi 👋 can I DM my OC’s reference for the request ? ^^

henlo ! u may go right ahead ! ^_^ /

Please draw Iku she is my wife and I love her very much 🥰🥰🥰