@silvcrs “'Cause I've done some things that I can't speak, And I tried to wash you away, but you just won't leave; So won't you take a breath and dive in deep? 'Cause I came here so you'd come for me” ----- His coffee was already cold by the time he took the first sip. The raven-haired young man, twenty-three that January, was counting his fingers. Five times. Six. Keeping track of time was a skill he lacked as it was, and now his brain was trying to recall just how many months had passed since he left the house. How many people had called asking him to return. How many weeks it took for them to stop calling. How many days since he’d last heard her voice, seen her face when he closed his eyes and kissed another girl. How many times he dreamt of her dark eyes, her lips pressing against his own and silencing the demons twisting his mind into a darkness he’d begged her to avoid. The memories never left him. Sometimes, he wondered if any time had passed at all. All the regret and anger he held beneath the surface of his skin could not make up for the reality: Zayn avoided his life. Sometimes he was able to let his emotions bubble up, rush to the surface like blood flushing his tan skin red. This morning, he was bubbling. But his hands gripped the edges of the table, his feet planted into the floor. She deserved more than walking into this café to find that after –however many months it had been– that he’d run. Again. Nearly every neuron firing in his brain screamed at him to run. But he was sick of running, exhausted over turning himself into an unreliable, ticking time-bomb. Even if he couldn’t face her, he had to stay.

now I’m left here in the dust; with the taste of broken trust  -the quiet, troye sivan

the chainsmokers ft. halsey // closer 

How many times do we say we don’t care but deep down we fucking care so fucking much.

(via kaliforhnia)

xbluntbella:

Once I was 7 years old…

Halsey - Colors

pastel–is–the–new–black:

Strange Love ~Halsey

keep it cool 

sellylovesrp:

                         ❝ What’s a soulmate? ❞

              ❝ It’s a..

                        Well, it’s like a best friend, but more.

   It’s the one person in the world that knows you better than anyone                                                                                                                           else.

It’s someone who makes you a better person, well, actually they don’t make you a better person…

                  you do that yourself— because they i n s p i r e you.

              A soulmate is someone who you carry with you forever.

                  It’s the one person who knew you,                                 and accepted you,                                     and believed in you                                                         before anyone else did                                           or when no one else would.

                   And no matter what happens.. you’ll always love them. ❞