“Never apologize for how you feel. No one can control how they feel. The sun doesn’t apologize for being the sun. The rain doesn’t say sorry for falling. Feelings just are.”

— Iain S. Thomas, Intentional Dissonance

“Sometimes letting go is the only way to find out who you’re meant to hold on to.”

— J. Sterling, The Perfect Game

your anxiety won’t ruin your relationship with the right person. remember that.

“Forgive yourself for not knowing what you didn’t know before you learned it.”

— Maya Angelou

Happy heavenly birthday babes. Life still isn’t the same without you. I still think about you every day of my life & that’s no exaggeration. Every story i tell, it involves you. We always had so much freaking fun. You never let anybody be sad. It was damn near impossible. When i’m listening to music a song will come on and I’ll say “This was selena’s song, she loved this song.” or the movie “The Road Within” we used to watch that and laugh so hard til we were throwing up. I swear we watched that at least once a week if not twice lmao. I still watch it if it’s on. You deserved so much more than what you were given. Life wasn’t fair to you and for that i’m sorry. You didn’t want this, everybody that truly knows you knows this is not how you wanted life to go. You were such a beautiful human being inside and out. If people didn’t like you, you didn’t give a f. You lived your life to please yourself and that’s something that I admired you for. You didn’t let anybody walk on you. I sometimes blame myself for not checking in on you when you needed it most. I hope you don’t hate me. I pray for you everyday. I talk to you everyday. When I would take hartslog road you were always with me on the car ride just like old times. I would see a cardinal everyday I drove that road the whole way out to work. I wish you could see how many people truly care for you. So so so so many 🥺 I’m not mad at you, I don’t understand, but i’m not mad. I’m not you.. I don’t know what you were dealing with on the inside that no one could see.. You always dealt with stuff alone but the second someone needed a boost, you were there to give it.. even if you were out of boost… You’re our angel on earth & in the sky 💕 I just know you make a beautiful angel! Those Cardinals sure are beautiful! Happy birthday Selena Dallas 💕🎁 I love you FOREVER

“One day you will thank yourself for never giving up.”

— Unknown

“Everyone you meet always asks if you have a career, are married or own a house; as if life was some kind of grocery list. But nobody ever asks if you are happy.”

— Heath Ledger

“Canis aureus” by Veselin Gramatikov

That empty, overwhelming, sinking, realizing feeling when you thought you were doing so good and recovering from your fear of abandonment but your thoughts relapse when your favorite person acts distant for just one day, you’re whole day is crumbling, trying to rationalize why they are distant because asking if they are okay is so crazy in your head. To ask for reassurance because you’ll know the answer. They’d say “no” but it feels like they are distant still. The one word responses, the time frame in which they text back. How does someone get over this feeling? Will it ever go away? It feels like it won’t and it comes back 100 times harder when you’re recovering. Why is texting such an issue?! It doesn’t feel like this when I am with them. As soon as I am no longer with them. It comes back, those thoughts, those haunting, self deceiving thoughts.

THAT PARANOIA THO!!