If you truly don’t love him, then why push him so much. You think you’re fooling me but it’s the other way around because I know you’ll never be fully honest with me anymore and I know when you’re lying clear as day. I just tricked you into thinking you can’t tell because you won’t be honest so you’re going to get the same back. And I happen to be the better actor

I did this to myself and it will stay that way

I won’t ask to change it, I swore I wouldn’t and I haven’t yet

Goodbye my five years

Cheol is essentially replacing him…

I’ll just distract myself from him with Seungcheol

Come on let go let go you’ve done it before easily so do it again now

But I’d rather break my own heart and that’s what I get

Gotta let go

I officially give up any hope for him

Well there’s no going back either way, I swore that

I was so ready to let myself dive back into it, him, and I panicked right away

I never understood why I can’t allow myself to keep love

Sometimes I think about how excited I used to be and I get so sad

Being in the middle of self destructive episodes is so fun ✌️

I fucked up again didn’t I

The moment when you realize you never were what you thought you had been to someone