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Always feeling this type of way

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It’s been a real hot minute since I even opened this app. Tumblr reminds me of times I was sad or frustrated or angry. It reminds me of times of heartache and tears. I spent a lot of time looking for people to relate to here. And I definitely found it. But what was even better that I found was myself. And it wasn’t here on this blog, scrolling. It was out in the world. Where I wasn’t safe behind a screen. It was real life experience and it was really feeling what I was going through. It was understanding why I was hurting and how I was going to heal from it. It was getting to know myself on a deeper level. It was deciding how I want to live the rest of my life and how I was gonna get there. It was becoming my own best friend and soul mate. It was spending time inside my thoughts, letting them be heard and tended to. It was allowing myself to heal for myself. And not forcing myself to heal for someone else.

Need

The most beautiful thing you will look today

3 years it took this girl to turn this piece of truck garbage into her home and it was beautiful. 😍😮 Have a good trip!

“Before you quit, try. Before you talk, listen. Before you react, think. Before you criticize, wait. Before you move on, forgive.”

— Unknown (via naturaekos)

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Understand that even an “understanding heart” grows tired of being understanding and never understood.

“To my soulmate, I know who you are. Because I see the person you are when you don’t think anyone notices. I just want you to know that I notice. And that is the person I love. Who you are deep down to your soul.”

— xo me

One day she'll stay

She’s obsessed with the idea of love. And she’ll take it from whoever is willing to give it. She wants to love. She wants to be in love. But someone broke her. And she doesn’t remember how to love. How to feel. She’s hurt and doesn’t know how to begin to heal. Everyone who tries to love her, hurts her in one way or another. Not because they meant to. But because she won’t let them in. So now she doesn’t trust people when they say they love her. Maybe some of them don’t. But they think they do. They think they love the broken girl. Because she speaks kind words and tells sad stories. Because all the pain in the world is in her eyes. And how do you not love someone like that. Someone who still seems so kind when the world has not been kind to her. But there is chaos in her brain. She’s angry at the world. She doesn’t understand it. She just wants to love someone and be loved by someone. But she doesn’t know how. Because she’s hurting. And won’t allow herself to heal. So she’s frustrated and thinks it’s okay to hurt others. She doesn’t think about it. She just does it. But there’s one person she realized she was hurting. And she realized it wasn’t okay. So she apologized. And then she went away.

That person wonders if she’ll come back. They wonder if she’ll return to stay. When she’s done hurting others and realizes it’s okay to heal. It’s okay to be whole. They wonder when she’ll stop being afraid of their love. Their arms are a home for her. And they know she’s just finding her way. She’s a little lost right now, and they hope when she turns around, she still sees the light on by the door. And they hope she’ll hear her name being called. And she’ll choose to listen to it rather than run away. One day she’ll be ready to love and be loved. She’ll remember what it feels like. She’ll remember how. And she’ll forgive herself for her mistakes. She’ll decide to return home and allow herself to fall in love. To be in love. And not because of a promise, but because it’s where she chooses to be, she’ll stay.

casual survey: reblog if you’re feeling gay right now