Weather was shit and I’ve had to put off putting the coilovers on.

I absolutely love driving this car. It’s not the fastest or the newest but it’s fun. I love fun cars. It actually makes me not want to do the shit I planned for it just because it’s just fun how it sits.

life’s worth living

I just wanna cruise in my car and skate with my friends and eat food.

Time for a new heart.

Kinda of tired of being horny and tired all the time.

No matter how strong the walls you build are you’re heart gets weaker everytime it’s hurt. I grow tired and I hate this feeling. My weak heart is fading and I’m not ready for more pain I don’t think I can take. I was fooled again. Why do I let myself down? Is it me or the people I choose to let in? Maybe i should just shut down completely. I’m not scared of much but I hate more than anything being crushed by a female who’s only toying with my emotions.

Shit! Got me again...

When she says she wants a Jzx100 you keep her close.

Go follow, like, cop, do something! They ain’t paying me to say this I’m just hyped to see this. It would be nice to get kids away from negativity anyway possible.

So the q45 died and I got a Gs400 but got bored of automatic so I traded it for this G35 I almost purchased last March. Redid the exhaust but ended up making it super obnoxious and lmthrough some springs on while I get the coilovers repaired. Once I get the exhaust sorted I think I’ll absolutely love it. My age is really starting to affect my mods. I love the single exit but the ghetto straight pipe job is so trashy to me that I would just rather have the stock piping. I think I’m going to search for a nismo exhaust or something or at least get some sort of oem piping back and then do the single exit. It’s super loud and doesn’t sound like VQ which is what I was after.

Documenting the moment I got rid of any emotions and hopes and dreams i had to get back with my ex. The context is in reference to us breaking up and her trying to get back with me. I said no. But I never said I didnt ever want to. This is a convo we had after I dropped her off from work when she dropped a bomb on why she always got mad at me for little things. This conversation explains a lot on why she would rather be hurt by some guy who she clearly knows doesn’t want her than to maybe try and rebuild our relationship. This is where my heart started getting crushed but built the wall I’ve had for years. Yesterday I had hoped to be able to be with my ex again and give her what she wanted. Yesterday after I woke up from this text I was just a roommate that was there for financial reasons with the perk of getting a ride to and from work everyday. Today she asked why I’m bing cold to her. I’m not being cold. You said in the car you were emotionally drained from me, so I drained any emotion I had left for you. She will unintentionally feel the pain when the weekend comes and she starts suggesting plans we could have done. As I no longer feel an obligations to participate in anything that closely resembles a relationship. We don’t have that anymore. We are strictly roommates.

To be told you’re worth less than someone who constantly tells you they don’t want you is the worse. I’ve hate the worst weekend of my life so far. Honestly never even thought I could feel like shit but wow from that person it’s horrible. I know our relationship is done but like I said to choose someone who clearly doesn’t care about you over someone who has your best interest at hand just shows what kind of person I am. I ain’t shit.

Well 245/45 is a no go at all. Car out here looking like a muscle car. Going over to L&S garage to cut the rear wheel wells. I can’t weld so I’ll just have janky looking fenders until I can pay for a radius to get done. Only need 2” fenders because I thought about resizing the back wheels down to 18x11 like the front but fuck that! Plus I have a new plan for TR45HBOAT. I want to acquire an aftermarket front bumper. But I want this thing to look like an old rat bucket.