i think that yeonsoo always kept searching for some kind of affirmation from woong, the kind of answer that promised her, just once, that he loved her.

and obs isn’t very clear with whether throughout the five years woong had ever said, “i love you,” but i think it is left up to us to interpret it. we just know that when she said it, he didn’t say it back.

he just kissed her.

when i thought about it more, it was strange because of course woong did know he loved her, he just never shared it with her through his words. the kiss was just his way of answering.

and what i realized is that sometimes the kisses we see in movies and tv shows hold no meaning. it becomes common and expected, no longer saved for a memorable moment. i think that’s why i love kdramas so much. just the lingering of woong’s hands on yeonsoo’s made me feel his longing for her. it’s really the little things.

woong and yeonsoo are each other’s first kiss. there is a special place within their hearts for each other. so in each season, and in each kiss, holds a new meaning.

from the summer: a young, innocent and sheltered love. the type of confession that gives them butterflies. a kiss that speaks, “I like you,” in volumes.

to the spring: the season of them falling in love. the beautiful and peaceful spring days which helps their love blossom. a kiss that speaks, “I think im falling in love with you,” in volumes.

to the winter: learning to grow together, even in the cold that surround them. finding a warmth within each other, that only the two can share. and loving each other nevertheless. a kiss that speaks, “i think i love you,” in volumes.

then finally fall comes around,

the find each other in the rain, only this time, unsheltered. the innocence of young love, long lost, and what is left for them, they have to embrace. as woong takes a slight walk uphill, the sun begins to set, and the rain pours harder. a promise that endings can always be be beautiful to. a kiss that speaks, “it’s you again, it will always be you,” in volumes. but this time, you hear woong say it.

so the notebook of them :’)

there’s something so easily captivating about our beloved summer. about choi woong and kook yeonsoo.

it may be that they don’t have the craziest or the most astounding backgrounds. choi woong was raised by the most loving parents in the world who own a restaurant. kook yeonsoo struggled with debt, but grew up with her grandmother. the two of them were young when they met, they didn’t have all the exaggerated and wild stories that usually come along in a kdrama storyline. they were simply high schoolers who lived their own lives.

so when they finally did stumble into each other’s lives, we saw the progression of them falling for each other. i don’t even know if it was a crush, but more like a subconscious one. one of those moments when you glance back one again and realize that you have fallen for them. that’s what kook yeonsoo and choi woong captured under the rain. it was so simple, yet beautifully written.

then comes the smaller moments. the ones that are built on top of each other. the way that choi woong carried yeonsoo’s backpack for her as they walked to school. the way that yeonsoo kept woong’s little note that wrote “let’s go outside” on it. the way that woong packed dinner for yeonsoo while she worked at the convenience store. the way that yeonsoo would touch woong’s forehead because he frowned in his sleep. the way that they always promise to make their way back to each other. the way that “let’s go eat” means that they have made up to the both of them. these are the moments, the type of love that we crave to experience. so simple, so small, but the most meaningful.

we can relate to these characters because they embody the different feelings and emotions that we experience when we are in love, whether it’s how woong is the kindest and softest character ever, yet he can also be so petty and hold a grudge for years. it could also be the way yeonsoo’s walls are always so high and she always is on guard, but once she lets someone in, she becomes one of the most loving people ever. take the cherry blossom scene for example, it’s those little moments.

the way the two of them intertwine is very endearing and warms my heart. from the outside, it looks like they just find joy in pushing each other around, messing with each other and all. they like to say they hate each other, but you see, love and hate walks a thin line. when they meet each other in the middle, they click perfectly. like one never existed without the other. they help each other become better people, not in an unattainable way, but in a realistic, step by step kind of way.

so when they break up, we automatically try to figure out who to blame it on. it’s natural for us to do that because it makes us feel better. in the beginning it was yeonsoo’s fault, she was the one who had broken up with woong, left him alone to deal with the aftermath, and walk away from it all. then, for the first time, we heard yeonsoo’s point of view. we saw her struggle, her reason, and the pain she endured and hid away. so then, we blamed woong for not being able to see through her.

the truth is,

they struggled within themselves. woong and yeonsoo needed a redo. a second try. and i think that within themselves, they secretly knew it then too. because they are the only ones for each other: soulmates i would say. but not in the star crossed lovers type of way, because we saw that love couldn’t hold them together forever. soulmates in more of a “i promise i will always run back to you” type of way. but through that, they also need to acknowledge each other’s inner feelings, grow, and communicate together.

it all feels so real.

it’s heartwarming and heartbreaking all at the same time.

not saying i would sell my soul for choi woong’s studio but i totally would.

*sigh*

imagine…