the spirit is not willing and the flesh it is not so into the idea either

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

Well you see minors under 25 years old should not be allowed to get gender reassignment surgery because what if they go to the clinic but instead of giving them a normal penis the nurses mess up and give them the evil penis. That's irreversible

POINT AND LAUGH

😭 (source: https://www.newyorker.com/culture/the-new-yorker-interview/jon-fosses-search-for-peace)

What's it take to get your number? What's it take to bring you home? Hurry up, it's time for supper. Order up, I'm hot to go.

Hayden Christensen photographed during his role as Stephen Glass in ‘Shattered Glass’, 2003

“You’d be surprised how quickly the mind goes soggy in the absence of other people. One person alone is not a full person: we exist in relation to others. I was one person: I risked becoming no person.”

— Margaret Atwood, The Testaments

Never understood the collective vehement resentment of small talk lol i hate the painful grind of small talk as much as the next person but i think id rather shrivel up and die than be denied nuggets of joy found in standing in an elevator and having a middle aged woman compliment my nails or bonding fleetingly with a cafegoer over the city's temperamental weather it's so integral to nurturing & cultivating the soul i think

Messages of support and strength from Rafah, Palestine to the US student movement.

ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT Top Banana - 1x02

do i wanna be your friend?? yes. will i message you?? no

I just found out these are all the same fucking person how is she so powerful

big enjoyer of shitty media that i would never recommend to people ever in my life

pranking the new kid in the firing squad by telling all the other guys not to pull the trigger during his first execution

God is a spider:

-Through a Glass Darkly (Ingmar Bergman, 1961)

-La femme publique (Andrzej Zulawski, 1984)