Entry #16: When?

Kailan mo ba ako pakikinggan? Kailan ba ako magkekwento o mageexpress sayo ng pinararamdam mo ng hindi mo binabalik sakin yung tanong hanggang sa makalimutan mo na ako yung may concern at hindi ikaw?

Entry #15: Afraid

Maybe naloko lang talaga ako, hindi totoo na babalikan ako. How to get out and start again?

Entry #15: It’s been a while…

I wish sometimes that the kind of family that I have is calm and a safe place for me when I am having a hard time. I can tell to my father how hurt I am to some jerk guy who never even dare to lessen his angry issue with me, or I can bond with my mother about anything that I want to tell.

Entry #14: I feel like I have no purpose here. The purpose that is solely for me is nowhere to be found. My heart is so heavy right now, it is so heavy that I comprehend what I am feeling anymore. I wish if God is true, he will help me or at least take me with him.

Entry #13: People always leave, what if ako naman yung umalis sa mundo? Mukha naman na wala akong magandang iaambag dito.

Entry #12: I’m tired.

Entry #11: Jumbled words, can't comprehend

Entry #10: Empty soul

Entry #9: Lost vessel

where to go from here?

Entry #8: Keeps on going.

I am lost, my happiness was just a time-lapsed tickling and then gone. I just want to be gone but I can’t someone who is very special to me needs me— the last straw, the last hope, the last breath, but honestly I am lost as if I am not fit into this world that makes me feel that I want to be gone and stop breathing.

Entry #7: Deeply hurt, breathing lost down on earth.

Entry #6: To all liquidators of the Chernobyl Disaster.

Soldiers, Pilot, Miners, Scientist, Firemen, Journalist, Volunteers who cleaned up the radioactive debris of the nuclear powerplant, thank you for saving us from harm, I am deeply sorry for the trouble that causing you misery these days. I will forever remember your courage and bravery to save the world. ☢️☢️

Entry #5: Give me therapy, I’m a walking travesty but I’m smiling at everything. Therapy you will never a friend to me.

Entry #4: Sometimes people need not to be save they just want a silent night with full of hugs, I guess?

Entry #3: As if I am being drowned, I just want to escape. I want to feel nothing instead of feeling empty. There were too many words that jumbles into my head and as they spin, they lost meaning as if I’m a walking travesty.

Entry #2: In the middle of chaos, I hope I find answers.

Entry #1: Sometimes I feel lost. At first, it make me sad but as time goes by I feel empty. :(