couple goals: both of us being irrationally jealous and ? not talking to each other about it

god i just wanna get high and sleep all day

im boring and dumb abd i hardcore rely on hans' happiness for my own i am Stupidly dependent on him

i think im gonna start cutting my arms agqin cuz then maybe my parents will notice and finally do something about it!!! plus i love attention lmao

I am actually trying really fucking hard not to cry i hate living like this

everything qould be like SO much better irl if we could actually SEE each toher and fucking talk but no instead you get me whos too insecure and scared to even send the first message when weve been dating for THREE MONTHS because im fucking!!! pathetic and i love it!!! and i love being a jealous bitch i do this is. great. fantastic a+

this is edgy as fuck but look sc makes my self harm look cute!

i love him so much it hurts  but i also feel like i can only make a fool of myself? because nothing gets portrayed correctly across text. i know he loves me i KNOW its just so hard to remember when things come between us. time, distance, being busy, it all happens and i need to deal but its hard because i cant see him. i want to see him all the time and thats in my cards but its now NOW and thats what hurts a lot about it.

im sad!!!!! not suicidal sad but like. still sad because i want hans to pay attention to me but hes also having fun doing something else? and i feel greedy for wanting his attention so badly ausdyds we only really get to talk at night but not even recently because hes been going to bed earlier :+( and i miss him. which is stupid because were still talking every day. but i miss him right now.

big question why am i like this

i love feeling bad for absolutely no reason

also I keep thinking about how he threatened to put me in a hospital for trying to kill myself and yet after finding me cutting TWO SEPARATE TIMES, he didn't do shit he doesn't care about me at all if it affects him negatively

my dads a fucking child he keeps taking my shit for no reason other than he wants to and he overreacts to everything I fucking do I tried to say hello to him and he looked disgusted I hate him so fuckI ng mych I want him gone I want him out of my fucking life I don't care if I ruin my relationship because he doesn't seem to want to fucking salvage it

Im so tired I want to shut off I want to disappear and slit my wrists and forget that anything ever happened to me at all

me, passive aggressively changing my bio to only one link:

also Yeet im so fuckign. Touch starved i hate thsi. so much im so lonely an di  ndhdhsdhj why am i sad all the tim e. i have a beautiful boyfriend who i lov eand i have a roof over my head an d no one is hitting me and im not being abused anymore. whu am i still so sad Why why why im ungrateful