I’m on edtwt now (have been for like 6 months) and I finally hit my second GW. woo

also moved to a new city w/ no scale so idk what I weigh. Kind of driving me nuts. Still fat tho so does it matter

I’ve been eating max 300 cal a day for a week- but then yesterday I smoked and then I ate McDonalds ugh I hate myself. No more smoking

I genuinely like the hunger pains because I know it means I’m gonna wake up skinnier tomorrow <3

the anorexic urge to stare at every skinny person that walks by

straight up. I’m so fucking tired of being fat. I’ve been wanting to be skinny for so fucking long, and yet I’m still just as pathetic as I was 5yrs ago. 

yeah heartbreaks hurts but have you ever binged on a food you were looking forward to and it just tasted sad and disappointing and all you’re left with is feeling like a overblown whale

I’m 160 again and it’s soul crushing. I can’t stand being this fat it’s tearing me apart

Also I got jumped yesterday so it’s an excuse to not eat anything. Feeling super nauseous still.. I don’t wanna get out of bed

So I moved across country and my roommates don’t have a FUCKING SCALE I’m losing my mind. And if I buy one then I’ll look like a fat fuck (more than usual)

My Lola lol “you’re so sexy- you’ve lost weight!”

4 pounds away from my 2nd goal weight ehehehhehehehe

My mom “omg you look so tiny” and “you’re so proportional now, your bottom is so much smaller” hehehehehe hard work pays off

uh oh just realized I am currently experiencing a manic high. Don’t wanna talk about it

Didn’t get the job. Felling pretty down about it. I hate the manic lows. I don’t want to live anymore, I’m so exhausted

LMAO I literally got the job the day after this! Also losing weight again so I’m living

Didn’t get the job. Felling pretty down about it. I hate the manic lows. I don’t want to live anymore, I’m so exhausted

Didn’t get the job. Felling pretty down about it. I hate the manic lows. I don’t want to live anymore, I’m so exhausted

4 pounds away!!