So full of them drugs I might throw up, knew I shouldn’t of hit the blunt.

I fuck everything up

trophy eyes - suicide pact

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Friendly reminder that Devon Lee is my favorite person to ever exist

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This photo is from 1955, it was called “a few seconds before happiness”. (Source: http://ift.tt/2k9FW24)

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Fire

So full of them drugs I might throw up, knew I shouldn’t of hit the blunt.

Meanwhile in northern Ukraine…

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Things I should get off my mind.

I’ve been considering suicide, I’ll stop here, and rearrange that sentence. I’ve ALWAYS had suicide in the back of my mind as a way out, a back up plan, something I can fall back too. It’s something that runs across my mind every single morning. I’ve always thought “why am I doing this? I don’t need to do this, I could kill myself and not have to do anything.” And that is the consistent thought pattern of my brain each and every morning. The feeling that I’m worthless and beneath others has had more adverse effects on my well being than all the drugs I’ve done in my life. If I could just say what I mean to say to people maybe I wouldn’t feel so worthless, maybe I wouldn’t want to kill myself. Maybe, that last sentence was the only time I’ve been optimistic. Although here I am again, trailing off into thoughts no one cares about. No one will read this. People care, never push that thought away, I know people care. That’s a huge reason why I’m still alive. I’ve tried to overdose, I’ve tried to over dose 3 times, every time I’ve made myself throw up almost immediately after, and I’ve regretted almost killing myself, but the regret was nowhere near as much as it would be for my own family to find their son dead and feeling helpless about it. That’s just it though, no one should blame theirselves for another’s suicide. Could of, would of, should of, will not fly in my case, when I die I do not want anybody to blame themselves. Suicide has always been how I assume I’ll die, and there’s a slight confidence boost I have knowing that I basically have a fail safe plan. I can kill myself and not deal with the realities of anything. Isn’t there something somewhat comforting about being selfish? In a weird way, I’d say so.

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