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"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.

i will forever be the hurting child, the angry teenager and the lonely adult.

hey man I found a piece of your soul stuck in the text messages of old friends you don’t speak to anymore. do you want it back

can’t wait for the day when somebody tells me i’m the best thing that’s ever happened to them and they mean it.

“I feel lost. I’m lost just like my sentences that I cannot use anymore. And I know I’ll never be free and if I won’t be free, I’ll never be happy. My soul, my broken heart, my dead eyes will never make me feel alive. They’ll never go away from me. And I can’t run away, I can’t escape from myself. And I think I feel too much but I don’t feel anything at the same time.”

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“What scares me the most is how much I think of suicide, and how I never talk about it.”

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“It’s my birthday and all I can think about is killing myself”

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“I’m always happy when I’m surrounded by water. The ocean makes me feel really small, and it puts my whole life into perspective. It reminds me; ‘Ok I’m this very little piece of this huge earth,’ and.. it humbles you, and it grounds you, and it make me feel almost like I’ve been baptized and that I’m born again when I get out of the ocean.” — Beyoncé ੈ☆

I genuinely hope that when I reach the later years in my life that I’m still here writing fic, sharing stories, and indulging in my hobbies because age is truly just a number at the end of the day. I’m 25 now, 26 is right around the corner. 4 more years till the ‘big’ 30 and yet, every time I write and share a story on here, I feel a piece of my inner child being healed.

That’s what it’s all about, right? Human connection? Creating art? Expression? Who cares how you do it, as long as it makes you happy.

“What scares me the most is how much I think of suicide, and how I never talk about it.”

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No because Clarice Lispector said, “Who has not asked himself at some time or another: am I a monster or is this what it means to be human?” and Florence Welch said, “But you have to satisfy the monster. The monster has loved you for longer than anybody else.” and Ocean Vuong said, “and what I really wanted to say was that a monster isn’t such a terrible thing to be.” and Helga Floros said, “I want to ask you which monster scared you the most as a kid.” and Mary Shelley said, “When I looked around, I saw and heard of none like me. Was I then a monster?” and Fredrich Neitzche said, “Is it better to out-monster the monster or to be quietly devoured?” but he also said, “Throw roses into the abyss and say; ‘here’s my thanks to the monster that didn’t succeed in swallowing me alive.’” and Mark Manson said, “There are still monsters in the back of my mind, and there probably always will be, but they’re getting quieter now.”

"If you smile too much you'll get laugh lines."

What a horrible curse, to be afraid of having happiness permanently placed onto your body.