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It Hurts
I have never experienced a hate crime (and probably won’t). I am white and straight passing. The only way people would know any different is if I tell them. I will never experience the full extent of the damage a single story can cause, but I think I have a small idea of some of it.
I am asexual and aromantic (I only recently figured out the latter and am still in denial at times). The world has created this single story of what love is and looks like and it sucks (for me at least). You find someone, date them, get married, spend the rest of your life with them, they should be your best friend since everyone talks about how their partner is their bestfriend. This creates a narrative that your partner/ romantic relationships should be valued more than your friends/platonic relationships.
It hurts.
I am terrified that my friends will move on and I will no longer be a priority in their lives and that I will be alone—all because I don’t experience love the same way (despite what some people believe aroace people still love and are not robots. Although, being a robot would be nice at times. Everything would be so much easier.).
Now, I know it probably sounds like I’m complaining for no good reason. Tons of people have it significantly worse.
They do.
I am extremely lucky.
However, I am going to continue to complain, because despite the fact that people have it worse.
It still sucks.
My parents are fine with it, but they don’t really understand.
No one does.
That's why I don’t talk about it. I don’t want to have to explain it to someone every single time I’m asked if I have a crush on anyone. Instead I just say “no I don’t”. Then sit there awkwardly as the person asking me tells me that “it's ok you’ll find someone” (with a patronizing smile) or worse they don’t believe me and just think that I do and am too embarrassed to tell them(and they tell me so, also with a patronizing smile).
It hurts.
I feel like it shouldn’t hurt. They are just trying to be nice/make conversation—they don’t know any better or different.
And yet, it does.
It is a constant reminder that I am weird, worthless different.
Now, going back to why I don’t talk about it. Another reason to put it plainly is I am scared.
I have never been a victim of a hate crime and I never want to be (no one does). I’ve heard horror stories from others online who have experienced a-phobia first hand (I’m not going to go into detail but a decent amount of it boils down to rape in order to “fix” what is “broken”).
It’s terrifying—so I keep quiet.
Part of me wants a “romantic” relationship, but I am too scared to put myself out there like that. Also do I really want that or is it just that I feel like I have to who knows (I certainly don’t at this point in my life).
So I am left to just…
Hope I figure it out.
Hope that people will begin to understand.
Hope that I find someone who feels the same way.
But until then,
It hurts.
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You know what type of relationship I want as an aroace person? I want that mid 2010's closeted Dan and Phil shit
Give me totally platonic besties who've lived together 10+years
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i don’t want a ROMANTIC PARTNER. i want a DEAR FRIEND i can use as a HUMAN WEIGHTED BLANKET
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idk how else to explain it, being aspec feels like being a background character
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It's okay if it takes a little longer than you thought.
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I am not out to anyone and I don't really feel the need to, it's too difficult to explain what aroace means so I just shrug it off and say "nah I don't want a relationship"
Anyone like me?
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"aroace people are emotionless" "aroace people are cold" i don't know where that notion came from. i love passionately, obsessively, almost clingily, just not romantically. i love my friends, i love my family, i love my cats. what makes you think i can't love?
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