there are two types of people with bpd

people who feel at their absolute lowest when they have a fp

and people who feel at their absolute lowest when they dont have a fp

I met another person with BPD and the way they referenced it was “ever since I can remember I have felt such a great sadness in me, no matter what” and yeah besides the way bpd affects relationships and external circumstances I feel like theres this understanding shared among ppl with BPD of just.. sheer pain, emotional agony

“communication is key” i say, as i ghost all the people i care about because i cannot express my feelings due to trauma

a lobotomy might make me stupid, but also would fix 99% of my problems

need to get up to do work need to reply to messages need to reply to emails need to be a human and do things

just a concept I wanted to get down. always remember there are treatments for this stuff and you can change

even on a reduced work schedule i’m still having these bad periods. how am i ever going to function in this world? i don’t even know why i feel so depressed so i can’t even try predict it ???!!!

i feel so bad putting my bf through my mood swings. i don’t lash out at him but him constantly watching me swing from happy and excited to depressed must be exhausting. the worst thing is i don’t know why most of the time. i don’t know why my mood shifts.