went birdwatching all day friday to celebrate being free from work. i've been using the camera i'm borrowing a lot, i think i'm getting better at photography little by little. it was a great day
this is my first free weekend in months. these are the first days i've had since february that i'm not either working or getting ready for and traveling between cities to get to my second job. i feel numb.
oh hey the forecast is literally thunderstorms. nice
one of my relationships ended tonight. it still feels unreal. several points today Grief threatened to sink in, but it never really got there. maybe it'll rain tomorrow.
one of my relationships ended tonight. it still feels unreal. several points today Grief threatened to sink in, but it never really got there. maybe it'll rain tomorrow.
you came back wrong and i am racked with guilt because i cannot bear to see you like this and i should have let you rest. i loved you so much that i defied death itself but i do not think either of us are happy
"i'm mr sterling's right hand arm. man." is to say: i am the unutterable wisdom that precedes and gives rise to verbal understanding.
"i'm mr sterling everything" is to say: i am the undifferentiated matrix through which the phenomenon of "mr sterling" is apprehended.
"his confidant. his best friend. his silly rabbit." is to say: the unity of the two, differentiated and undifferentiated, quiescence and clarity, produces a third which is motion, who then goes on reproduce itself indefinitely.
"does he call you that? no." is to say: the name which can be spoken is not the eternal name.