back on tumblr🙃 i’m definitely not going to restrict bc i wanna pass my exams lmao. we’ll see how this goes.

gotta love being a woman😍

i was on the bus blasting music in my airpods bc getting on the public transport alone is still something that’s hard for me to do. i went to the side and i was texting a friend when i can feel a man is staring into my soul to the point where i got chills all over my body. i take off one airpod and he proceeds with asking me if i had something (at this point i’m zoning out) and i muffled no and put my airpod in again. then he continued staring at me until he went away eventually. it got time for me to get off and i can see that he’s also getting off and keeps staring at me. luckily he went into another direction.

and while all this is happening the bus was freaking full. the guy didn’t talk to anyone but me. now i’ll be paranoid that someone is following me.

my book is attacking me🙃

i was in the store and i was gonna buy b/p food but i put everything away and only bought 1 thing i’m craving. maybe one day i’ll recover? anyways, stay safe and make sure to drink water💕

okay i have to make some rules for myself bc without some kind of routine i feel like i’m going insane.

so for starters, ed rules:

1) min 5k steps (if anxiety is too bad to go out - just walk around the house)

2) eat only in front of people (so breakfast and dinner)

3) between breakfast and dinner - low cal drinks, fruits, vegetables

4) lots of water!!!! min 8 glasses of water

5) no eating of foods that will trigger b/p urges (like sweets) - try to find healthier options

6) no eating out (if i have to meet up with a friend - only at cafes and no eating)

stop giving 100% to ppl who give u 1%

i ate too much fiber yesterday and my digestive system hates me💀✋🏻

*expresses emotion* lol ignore me I'm just being silly

i post for people who feel like they’re inherently unlikable to others without being able to tell what the reason is

if i hung myself on a tree in december would i be considered a christmas ornament?

If I don’t loose 10kg by Christmas Santa ain’t gonna be the only one jumping off roofs

are you the amount of calories i’ve ate today? because your’re constantly on my mind (ed rizz)