you know that feeling when you live as the main character and then you lose all your best friends and one wonderful morning you wake up as an nps and even your name doesn't belong to you anymore
this post is for you. yes, you! you are so deserving of a good, happy, content life. you are so strong and resilient, and i am proud of you. you will make it through all this hardship and come out the other side doing better than ever.
(SOUND IS CRUCIAL) this video is has murdered me dead the music the editing the way information is slowly revealed about the two of them the plot twist the breaking bad images. WILLIAM WILLIAM WILLIAM. all over minecraft parkour someone help im seizing
gonna be completely fucking honest the longer the day goes on the funnier it is that the big bang theory theme song of all fucking things woke us up from the scariest ptsd flashback-nightmare of our life. imagine hearing yourself flatlining and surgeons saying theyre losing you and then hhghhdfhghhdfhj
does this make this post funnier or more fucked up we don't know. the most horrifying near death flashback In Our Sleep punctuated by "IT ALL STARTED WITH THE BIG BANG (BANG!)" to wake us up
our brain is still in such shock at this whole experience that our subconscious has been giving us flashbacks of us nearly dying on the operating table in '22.
it takes so much fucking willpower to say "hurting myself is hurting others, and i need to stop. even if it takes time. even if i slip up again sometimes. even if i think i deserve to be hurt. even if i think the things i've done are unforgivable."
especially when you've been doing it for so long. your whole life, even.
we've been doing a lot of talking as we've just begun to process all of this, but we want to put a bite of positivity out there.
our stepdad had been battling addictions of varying flavors (alcohol, coke, etc...) since he was in his teens. we believe he said around 14. always dragging himself through life, through his own self loathing, always running, always imploding.
believe us, he'd had his bouts with trying to sober up, but being punished by his parents, incarceration, lack of help for his mental health, and other life factors always kicked him right back down. he never felt deserving of help.
he set down the bottle for the last time in his late 40s.
our brain is still in such shock at this whole experience that our subconscious has been giving us flashbacks of us nearly dying on the operating table in '22.