i'm going to be alone forever

what is so wrong about wanting companionship? yearning for someone? loving them for them? i wish i could move differently but i just cant

ate shroom gummies on a beach alone tonight and then saw a movie. came home and wept. i'm so tired of living life alone.

i'm gonna go to the beach alone tomorrow :)))

hahahhaah i'll never be good enough for anyone :D !!!!!!!

this is literally eating me alive lol

she doesn't miss me

i hate that i was right

i miss her so much

lol i fucking hate myself

i wish i had a semblance of control in my life

i'm such a fucking loser

i hate being awake

this hurts

i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck i suck

everyone in my life barely tolerates me and it's never been more apparent

i just dont know what to do anymore and the walls of life are slowly caving in