i am back

okay ive given myself 40 days to get to 90lbs. thats until school starts. just 40 days of 500 cals and lower everytime i lose 5 lbs. i can do this

gonna actually get back into my 500 cal limit and drop it by 50 everytime i lose 5 lbs

fast is goin good, hopefully i get under my lowest after 48 hrs

me? self harming again? not surprising.

also me, cutting deep and not feeling it hurt at all? not too surprising

and me, not washing the cuts or bandaging them? also not surprising.

(help why dont they bleed enough and why arent they hurting)

i wanna eat but st the same time i dont??!1? i have no appetite but i feel like munchin smth. water it is? or c r a c k e r s.. smth w a crunch. ummmm. 80 cal cheese dip and 160 cal crackers ok thats 240 prolly for the day not bad

i wish i could lose like 10 lbs overnight thatd be cool

whats poppin

yooo theme change

I LOST MORE BITCHESSS 106.6 HAHA

i joined a proana discord server and its helping me stay motivated sm i love it and the ppl r so nice

anyways IM AT 107.0 LBS AFTER NOT BEING ABLE TO STOP V0M!T!NG LAST NIGHT FOR LIKE 10 HRS AJFNRDN i gotta get sick more gaht daym.. i was at 110.6 so i losttt 3.6 lbs :) im at my lowest weight rn.. no food until im at 100 AGXNDNC IM SO EXCITED

NOOO I FORGOT ABT THE CALORIE TRACKERRR my adhd does not let me remember anything

today was ok,, i ate the school lunch which was like, little pizza rolls but filled w cheese? idk. i regret it ofc cause i felt too full after :(((

why am i genuinely so shitty? i ignore everyone i love because i’m selfish. i ignore everyone just because i don’t feel like talking. what’s wrong with me? seeing people irl makes me so much happier but i’m always too busy with school or whatever. though i still agree to leave before i get to see them. the same thing every week. planning to kms but never having the balls to do it. i think next week i might,, maybe not. idk.

next weeks gonna be fun