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Llaollao dumps part 3 (last one)

spent my last 3 months doing something other than watching movies and truthfully won’t be doing it again

I'm doing good

I wanna send kisses and hugs to anyone who open my tumblr and scroll till the end. you know who u r!

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Llaollao dumps part 2 (selfie edition)

Llaollao dumps part 1

I know it’s been quite sometime since i last post anything here. It just that i dont feel like it. Cus when I write, i need to have that certain kind of emotion but for the past weeks those emotions are just not there. you know what i mean? So here i am about to give you an update on my current life “situation” but most of all, the biggest news is that I finally graduated my diploma with vice chancellor award. Something 18 years old me won’t even imagine this could even happen. Back then, i always doubt my ability, and always thought that i was never good enough. I’ll always watched the others answering questions as it was the easiest things they ever heard while i just look infront of me with blame and hate for why my brain is completely empty. Im just an average students who tried hard to be more than just average. But now, I cant help but feel this feeling of relief. No more stress, no more overthinking every night, no more questioning myself, no more doubting myself, no more tears and no more worry. It just that im proud of what I’ve achieved so far. And it might not be a big deal to some people but it is to me. Bcs there just so many things going on during my last semester that I don’t wanna talk about it or even remember about it anymore. I pushed myself to my limits and God alone knows how tedious and struggling it was for me. But i constantly keep this in mind, that “giving up” is never an option so I have been blessed by my result. Allah is indeed the almighty, ‘after hardship comes ease’. I just know that everything happens for a reason and it probably change me for the better. So do offer yourself grace and compassion during your difficult time or even at your lowest and know that this too shall pass ✧˖°🌷📎⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚

end my diploma life in less than 12 hours.

people who stumbled across my tumblr’s , and chose to go thru my feed, i appreciate and adore you!

How can I be so mad at the person who gave birth to me?

The person who raised me,

The person I looked up to as a kid,

The person I described as my “Hero” on my essay during primary school.

I know its normal,

A teenage daughter and a mother arguing.

But I still feel bad.

I just wanna look up to her again.

I want to be able to tell her everything’ I’m going through.

I want her to be my friend again,

And not my enemy.

-fh

July 17, 2023.

Impromptu hangout turned out to be a blast! especially with this people <3

I fight with my mother. Again.

It’s almost like a game we like to play,

who’s word will cut the deepest,

and leave you crying today?

But sometimes she take it too far,

then wonders why I push her away.

And when things get heated,

i’m the one who need to apologize.

Because when she insults me,

when she hurts me,

she’s unable to recognize

the pain she has also cause me,

the pain she should see in my eyes.

-fh

Eid al-adha 🕌🩵

🎳 night

and i wouldn’t marry me either;

a pathological people pleaser

life lately;