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I love you more since you always believe in me

I’m aware that I lacking a lot, totally a lot. As a lover, I’m probably one of the most frustrating type because I’m so slow and so dense and I’m pretty insensitive. Still, you give me countless chances because you believe in me. You always trust me that it gives me deeper ache whenever I hurt you. I know I disappointed you way too much to the point you’re not expecting much from me. I’m trying to not saying much but to prove with my actions instead, it’s what more important anyways but still no matter how disappointing I am, knowing you always believe in me makes me love you deeply.

I love you more for teaching me what love is and for loving me

You might have this kind of thought before that I’m friendly, I’m surrounded by many people, I’m unapproachable because with so many people around me I most likely wouldn’t be able to notice you, - to put it simply it looks like I have everything? But even though I trust people easily I also build walls. In my head, I always think negatively. I let people around me because I know they will leave anyways. I tell people things about me because I don’t think I’m important enough for anyone to remember. If I get hurt, then that’s okay.. that’s how it supposed to work, the world works like that. It’s crowded around me but I always feel empty. My doc used to say that I should learn to love myself more, to cherish myself more – that way the love that I share with people will be more meaningful and makes me happier. I didn’t really know how and what this supposed to mean but I understand it better now. Although understanding love better is nice, to actually receiving all your love and affection is really something I never thought I will be able to get. All things added, the stronger my love is for you.

I love you more for never giving up on me and making me feel wanted

Like I said, I’m not exactly the easiest person to handle nor the ideal lover anyone dreaming of but even with all my flaws you always make me feel at home. Not to mention, you’re actually the one who did the hugest steps for us. Like, who did the first initiative to approach in DM? You did. Who tried to initiate conversation when I went back to my OC account? It was also you. I can named more but it’s going to make this so lengthy but the point is, most of the most important steps for us, it was all thanks to baby’s bravery. Also, I never had anyone willing to fight for me as much as you do. I’ve been familiar with the feeling of people needed me for things, but never much for the feeling of being wanted by anyone until you comes in. It’s so hard to not head over heels for you when you’re being like this to me.

I love you more for all the efforts you’ve pouring in for our relationship

Probably the sexiest part out of all for this current list. I really was hoping that I can have something infinity with you because somehow I have extremely great feelings with baby because while we are getting closer, never had anyone ever make me go softer than the usual soft me as you do, never had my fl family (re: sga) supporting me so much to pursue someone as much as they supporting me to pursue you – remember that I used to have dating ban before it modified to I only allowed to date baby. I’m glad that everyone is right about baby, and you’re such a true keeper because you really putting effort into our relationship. I like how open we are, I like how hard it is we always try to keep our communication because we both understands how influential it is in relationship, I like how despite it’s so hard to deal with me baby always try to be so understanding. You’re truly the best, baby.. I’m so in love with you incredibly deeply, and I will always be.

Of course, this is just a small list of examples about how it's so easy to falling for you and love you more. I just want baby to know that for me, you're my most absolute favorite person ever. I want you to keep in mind that you're really precious, and this can be a little reminder whenever baby is exhausted or feeling low, that you have me who loves you so dearly. Even if one day the world decides to turn their back and going against you, you will always have me by your side.

I love you, my everything

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I love you more when you spare your time for me, for us

This is huge because I know you’re always busy. You’re most probably tired from having a long day especially when you have to endure the witch, yet you always spare some time for me – to checking on me, to spoil me, to make sure I feel loved. I can’t thank baby enough for this, but I surely always falling and loving baby more deeply with this knowledge in mind.

I love you more when you make me smile

This might be smol for baby especially when you make me smile simply with your existence, but this is extra meaningful for me. No one can come close to you when it comes to making me feel happy. You’re not only my biggest source of strength, you’re also my biggest source of happiness. My days never been the same after you come into my life, I radiate more energy, like I’m finally alive. It’s super hard for me to not loving you more when you’re the reason I’m becoming who I am now, and I like this version of me much better.

I love you more when you help me discover myself

Perhaps because I used to loathed myself a lot, but I really don’t see anything positive or even want to explore more about myself? I never even curious about how much a simp I can be lol but with baby, somehow, I keep on wanting to outdo myself. I want to become a better person, so I will never ever hurt you or at least I can minimize it to the most least amount I can ever do. I want to keep you safe from harm, including from me. I want to stay by your side, always. Those are my initial motivation but interestingly, the more I find new things about myself that I never know before, the deeper my love for you is.

I love you more when you’re being open and vulnerable with me

Baby said it before, that baby hate it when you’re filled with anxiety. Baby also told me that you hate your petty self. I think baby also mentioned about how baby dislike how sensitive you are. Baby also opened up about how you broke down to me before and I know it’s not easy…. To tell me all of those must be taking a whole lot of courage from baby’s body but you decided that you willing to share all of those with me. You chose to be truthful and honest and to fully trust me with things you wouldn’t share with anyone. If anything, that makes me cherishing those sides of baby even more. I found petty baby as really adorable, a cute sight I’d love to see while I found sensitive baby extremely sexcie. I will reassure baby over and over again, and I will let baby know that baby is perfect with your imperfections for me. All those sides of yours, I love it so much and I love it more every time it appears. I feel like I’m extremely privileged to be able to see baby being total honest open truthful to me, and it would be a complete lie if I said I don’t like it. Feel free to tell me everything just like how I would tell you anything, baby. I will accept, love, and be by your side.

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I love you more whenever you remind me to get my meals

This might be simple for some people out there but for me, the mere fact that you never forget to taking care of me no matter how busy you are is definitely a major heart fluttering moment, especially considering how reckless I can be. The old me almost most definitely would skip my meals a lot but now I can’t bring myself to do that on purpose because it will make you disappointed slash sad and you will convince me to eat (even though, in all honesty, you don’t have to convince me much.. I will do it for you) because, you warm my heart whenever you say that. You care for me so much, you always oozing with kindness whenever you talk to me, how could I not falling harder for you?

I love you more whenever we are together

I don’t think I should say much about this one, isn’t it? Since it’s pretty obvious that every second I spend with baby will most certainly make me falling in love with baby. Every single second with baby is pure bliss, I wish I actually can spend all my 24 hours in every 365 days with you, to keep loving you more and more and endlessly in love with you.

I love you more whenever I miss you

Yeah this one is serious.. whenever I miss baby of course I won’t stop thinking about baby. About how cute you are how lovely you are how caring you are how kind you are about how you are the literal complete package and cheat sheet in a human form it’s still unbelievable someone as amazing as baby exist and most importantly baby exist in the same lifetime with me and now blessing me every single day with your presence like seriously baby how lucky I am to be with you right now? Do you know I always close to tearing up whenever I think of this? When my thoughts swimming and drowning in the memories of you, I always end up loving you more double triple quadruple even more.

I love you more whenever you understand me

Sometimes, I think baby is blessed with superpower because how can baby understand me and my mind so well? Like, baby really read my mind to the point I asked you several times whether you installed CCTV in my house or not since even things that are so trivial baby always can know it. If it’s already super heart fluttering, it’s still not that huge compared to how you always can understand my feelings well. You know me better than myself, and I love you more for being so extremely understanding.

I love you more whenever you make me feel like I’m invincible

Still talking about your superpower baby.. Having baby with me makes me feel stronger. Having baby’s support is like having the whole milky way cheering for me, I definitely can go through anything, any obstacle, or any hardships, as long as I have you with me. I say baby is my whole universe not for nothing, and I can’t live the same way without you in my life.

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On this special occasion, and as your one and only silly simp why not I use it to say that I love you, baby? Not the why I love you because there is absolutely no need to have reasons to falling for you, everything about you baby – every single thing about you and you can use it all to make me love you. With that in mind, I thought that instead of using why, I feel that “I love you more” as I spend each and more second together with you is more suitable so, here we go with a little examples of how easy it is to falling for you and love you more and more

I love you more whenever you go “all mysterious” aura

That’s right, baby! Your infamous mysterious aura hehehe.. Something about your mysterious aura is just – hot, like extremely hawt, and I love it a lot. Borrowing what Vermouth always says and it’s actually her favorite quote, “a secret makes a woman, woman”. Basically baby is THE proper most hottest woman in my eyes.

I love you more whenever you teases me

You look like you’re having so much fun whenever you tease me and I must say, it makes my heart so full. Happiness looks really great on baby and when baby tease me, at the very least baby is having fun with me and lively baby is making me falling in love with baby over and over again.

I love you more whenever you judge me

Maybe this one sounds so weird, and I know it is but I really feel this weird satisfaction feeling when you judge me – like I’ve achieved some greater good for humankind and it’s something that I should be proud about. Plus, I’ve grown to think that judgy you is absolutely adorable, me likey hehehehehe

I love you more whenever you say “good morning baby”

This is very important for me because as we all know, its super necessary to start your day in a good note, right? And my day hasn’t “officially” started if I haven’t get your good morning greeting baby. Whenever baby say it, you instantly put me in a good mood no matter what already happened while baby hasn’t wakey and it somehow calm me down, knowing that it’s another day that I thankfully will be able to spend with baby. It might be really simple, but I do love you more whenever you say that to me.

I love you more whenever you deal with whiny me

I whine a lot and I fully aware of that, but you always, always so patient dealing with me. It’s crazy actually, I know I’m like a full time whiner but you still love and doting on me so much. If I don’t fall for baby even more whenever I whine then there must be something fundamentally wrong with me.

Happy Eleventh Monthsary!!

Tadaaaa~!! It's me again baby hehehe I hope baby is not sick of seeing me, of course you're not right? :winkwink: Happy eleven months for us and happy first month after baby officially becoming my fiancee. I'm so happy getting all the privileges of being yours, I got all the special perks and I'm not sharing baby's special perks with anyone else, never! :hmph:

This month is harder hbaby is busy and I'm extremely worried about baby's health, but I'm glad baby is stronger than me and baby don't get sick much despite the hectic schedules since the end of the year before, and I hope after this baby's schedule will be more bearable and less packaged. :fingers_crossed:

This month I also finally feel how it feels like to not hearing anything from baby for around 18 hours and I felt like I almost dying from the anxiety and nervousness, I genuinely afraid of losing you and it hits me how terrible baby must feel whenever I wasn't around.. how could baby handle all of that, eh? Baby is so strong fr TT_TT I hope baby know how much I reflecting over it, and I will try to always inform baby before I poof or sneaking in to update baby if I have to poof quite long but please make an exception for me if I fall asleep because baby knows how fast I can fall asleep I might unable to control my heavy eyelids and I can't tell baby first about it :( but fr I'll informing baby and not going to make baby feel absolutely shitty when I have to poof :(

I hope I can grow to become a better lover for baby and we can have better happier days with baby! I absolutely looking forward to spend more time with baby. wait for me to greet baby specially in the next month, okie? I love you so so so much my baby, happy monthsary!

With love,

Your silly