But I see Lily every night when I come home, and she's always awake, she must be waiting for me. Though you are always asleep when I get there.

We really do. I miss you and so does our little girl.

Oh, well what kinda stupid did you mean then? Eh I'm not smart but whatever, I get by and I worked hard my whole life in something I'm good at and it payed off so. True, but still I don't know man.

I didn’t mean that kind of stupid, but… well, that didn’t come out good. You’re not stupid, alright? You’re great at football and, well to each their own? I suck at math and PE and I’m failing those classes. And that could have happened to everyone…

Bro, if you haven't noticed I'm not the smartest guy here. I'm barely passing my classes and the only reason I'm going to college is because of football. So I kinda always feel stupid and I was also dumb enough to get my girlfriend pregnant, so I think I definitely know what you're saying.

Have you ever had one of those days when you feel stupid and… I don’t know. Do you get what I’m trying to say?

Why?

I’m so sad.

Thanks. I love you too babe. I miss you too, we gotta get a better schedule.

Okay, okay, I will be.

You'd also be dead, and I don't want that. Be careful around the diapers alright?

I’d be a legend.

Dirty diapers or clean diapers? Though I don't think i've ever heard of death by diapers, you would have been the first.

Shh, I could have died under a pile of diapers.

No, I knew you were alive when I kissed you this morning. I mean should I have been worried?

Were you worried?

Well thats a relief.

Look, I’m alive.

Because I wanted to go, and hell baby I'm going! Good for you Kenz, you just never said anything about it so I didn't know but I'm all for it. I think its a great idea. I get it, you're pretty amazing for thinking that way. You really love him don't you? Your guy's going to Harvard? Well damn he's smart. And of course you'll be a model, playboy here we come! Just kidding, don't even do that, nope. I won't allow it, I should be your manager or ethics adviser or something. Na, you're too smart for that, or at least your boyfriend it. College is for chumps, even though I'm going, but I'm going for football so I can be in the NFL hell yes. You just better plan it and learn to hold your alcohol because shit will get real.

That’s true though. I remember how you used to talk about Florida all the freaking time. I’m happy you got in by the way! Yeah, I’ve been thinking about it, and after I turn 18 I’m out. My parents aren’t exactly thrilled about the idea, but they are never here anyway, so it’s the same. His parents wouldn’t let him, and if I ask him and he actually wants to, he will have a problem with them. I rather have him over all day and sleeping at his house.Uh… Yeah, I mean… Well, I’m going to follow Zach to Harvard and you know, become a model like I always wanted to — I’m not exactly going to college or anything, but I have plans. And you can bet your blonde ass it will!

I know, I do. She is mine, and she's perfect. I'll try to ask Zach tomorrow or I'll ask Kenz or something. But really, get some sleep and I can take care of our baby. Don't even worry about it. I love you, a lot.

I miss school.

Okay, I guess that’s fair. You have to have some bonding time with her. She is your little girl, too. I know Zach will help you if you ask him nicely… just remember his name. I’ll let you take over and sleep, but if you need me you have to promise to wake me up, okay?

I'm fine, I'm not working too hard. I'm not working enough, I need to focus more on home stuff. Zach right, I knew that. I can rest when she's asleep for a little bit. You have been up all the time with her. You gotta let  me take a turn, I want to and I need to.

I miss school.

I know, I just don’t want you to work too hard ,you know? His name is Zach, not Zeke, but that’s sweet. I just want you to rest after work. I can take care of her.

She's ours, not your mom's. We'll make sacrifices, and make it work. I'll stay home tomorrow, its fine. I've been doing my work and I might even ask Kenzie's boyfriend Zeke to help me so I can stay on top of things. I gotta keep my grades up so I can graduate. But more importantly I need to take care of you and Lily.

I miss school.

I don’t want you to do that. You need your own rest and stuff. Maybe I can get my mom to watch her for a few hours while I sleep tomorrow.

I know, I'm sorry too. My shifts over in a little bit and I'll be home. I'll take her and I can stay home from school tomorrow, that way you can get some rest.

I miss school.

I’m sorry, babe. I really am. I’m just so tired… Lily cries when I put her down.

Its a full scholarship babe, I can't get better than that. Plus its my dream school. I wouldn't want to go anywhere without her, I'm just lucky she's willing to do it with me. Yes you can visit whenever you want to, thats an order! Wait for real? You're moving out? I mean thats true, you're always alone in that big house. You could ask him?  I mean do you have plans for after senior year or what? Because Aunt Kenzie is always welcome in Florida! But that sounds amazing, I cannot wait. Its gonna be the best spring break ever!

You’re still on time to apply somewhere else.. I can get some of my Dad’s friends to move a couple of strings… And I’m sure she wouldn’t let you go anywhere without her. Yeah, in Florida! So I can visit you guys whenever I want to? I’m also thinking about moving out of my house, if I’m going to be alone 24/7, I’d rather live somewhere smaller that I can actually call my own. I don’t know yet and I highly doubt Zach would move in with me anywaysI’ll call to some travel agencies after I’m done with the party, okay?

Uh well no, that I cannot do. But they have those pump things don't they? I don't know. I'm just trying to help, I feel like I never see you because school and work and you're always tired and I don't know.

I miss school.

You can breast feed now?

I had a say too you know, and you're the best girl for the job! Yeah I know, but I was graduating anyways, just not expecting to go so far away. I just can't turn down the offer you know? And I'm lucky Kara is willing to go with me. You're getting an apartment? Why...and when? Oh yeah! We have to get on the, like right now. Seriously its gotta happen!

Yeah, like you can. I was chosen by God and Kara to be with that baby. I don’t want to think about it either… You’ve been here my entire life, and not seeing you every day is going to be so weird, and now that I actually like Kara is even worse… I’m getting an apartment there, I swear to God I am! Hey, you know what should we do? START PLANNING CANCUN.