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perfect representation of what it’s like to be bed bound because of chronic illness /disability.

It’s always “support disabled people!!” Until they need help doing “basic” every day needs. Until they need help brushing their teeth, using the bathroom, taking a shower, getting dressed, etc. Before you call yourself an “activist” think about what you would do if a disabled person asked you to change them, or help them brush their teeth, or carry them to the couch.

sometimes your disability actually does stop you from achieving the things you want to do

"differently abled"

no no, you see we *cant* do things because of whatever reason. a disability disables us from doing so. and that shouldn't be a bad thing in your head

me when the chronic pain pains me: body... evil? body... unfaithful?? body... hates me? body evil!! body betrays!!! jail!! jail to body for a thousand years!!!

me when the chronic pain is chronic and painful:

when rest and "lazy days" stop being optional, you eventually stop enjoying it. i don't even know how to relax anymore. there's barely any relaxation in rest for me, it's all forced by a sick body.

notes for my impostor syndrome:

• no, it's not painful to walk for abled-bodied people

• no, healthy people don't usually use every chance they get to lean against walls or sit down

• no, ableds don't dream about shower stool

• no, ableds don't celebrate days when they're not in pain. because usually they're not in pain

• no, ableds don't want to stop walking mid-way, lay down on the ground, curl up and cry and whine from pain

• no, ableds aren't exhausted by their own bodies 24/7

I want people to understand. Sitting up hurts. Because of my hypermobility, weak core muscles and chronic fatigue, sitting up itself is exhausting and hurts. Do people realize how fucking weird and almost dehumanizing it is to have something as simple as sitting up hurt? Like something that people need and find so easy is utterly exhausting and painful to me. I know a lot of my chronically ill friends go through this. Sitting up just hurts!!

I love when my vision gets super cloudy and I have to play the game of "is it my normal issues, the coffee cursing me, or a new, third, frightening issue?"

“trust your intuition” baby i have anxiety i can’t tell which is which sometimes

I walk and my legs hurt. I sit down too long and my legs hurts. I lay down too long and my legs hurt. What do these things even want from me

To those who also deal with chronic pain:

I want to remind you that it doesn’t matter how “minor” your pain seems. The reality you need to remember is that most people don’t live in pain on a regular basis. You’re allowed to be drained and bothered by your pain.