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Sorry I only ever come here to vent but holy shit this month has been fucked, lost my job and now the doctors need biopsy me for fucking cancer? like what the fuck dude. Just so much to take in all at once. Fingers crossed it's good news but this all just getting a little too stressful for my liking.

This is what we get for asking for Glenn on keytar.

The more you know (via @RachelTobac)

Medusa with the head of Perseus, Luciano Garbati.

Look At The Moon… Look At Your Moon… Every Day It Changes One Bit…

Look At Your Face – Look At Your Skull. A Moon Indeed… A Moon Indeed…

I Worry So Much One Day I Will Never Recognize You

I'm really not coping and this is the only place I feel comfortable admitting it

This is fucked I've had enough.

Being drunk enough to call the local hungry jacks to say thankyou for fucking me up with as many pickles as they're allowed to.

I wish I didn't have to work the amount of music I could make if I wasn't headachey and tired all time. I've been struggling to get to fortnightly jam lately and it's really bumming me out. 

Well I haven't been here in ages but I'm home sick and have been having the most in depth fever dreams and some of you guys showed up and it's made me wonder how you're all going.

Frontal view of adult jumping spiders. Zoologica. 1948.

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So things have been going pretty shit the past couple of months, mental health is out the window and I haven't been much more isolated than this since I can remember. Which as lonely as it is I've had time to reflect on myself and also read a lot so probably for the best. Been working heaps of over time, so if things go as planned I should be able to afford a bush block without getting a loan in the next 18 months. I just need to find somewhere close enough to the city for it to be practical to go there on weekends and close enough to water for it to be self sustaining without too many hours of work. Hopefully grow some native/hybrid fruit trees, make a couple of bike tracks and fill a dam with yabbies and trout and I'll be set. Things are looking up I just need to get though this period and hopefully come out on top and not fall back into the drug hole I've pulled myself out of