You are even more worth than this kind of pain

I feel like giving up. I feel totally like giving up. Maybe later, I will realize that all of these are pointless. My body is weak and my heart is in pain. I dont know if I can bear this anymore. I dont feel like being loved. Mira, dear myself. just stop depend on someone anymore. not even him. I dont want to love him anymore. even I love him so much and he is my everything. Just stop and stay away

Remember this is what Hollyhock said her dads say when she’s crying. 

10

No matter where I am, You are always on my mind :)

Sayang, I want you. I seriously do. Please dont break my heart again.

Jangan sia-siakan chance yang I kasi 

Be loyal with me, & I will do the same thing

and.....

Lets stay together, dan buat semua orang impress,

ketats, bfftj, and mika Hahahaha.

Sincerely, your clingy girl

9

No amount of words could ever describe how much I love you.

Once again, I am sorry for giving up on us because sometimes I feel like love tires me more than I thought.

I am sorry if I am not good enough.

I am sorry I couldnt trust you the way I used to do. I am sorry that I need to take it slow. because of Trust issues, I must say. 

But nevermind. I will try my best ok.

8

Thank you for those efforts, sayang.

Thanks for giving me those best memories ever.

Hihi fyi, few days ago, I was reading a book and it said that I love you as the plant that never blooms but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers. Damnnn gurl.

Started with "Wei ambik gamba sekali" "Oi Ni aku Fahim", and right now we are here.

And I am so blessed sebab jalan cerita kita berdua tak dull, boring and plain macam orang lain. Banyak sangat dramas, macam roller coaster.

Roller coaster; has ups and downs, twists and turns, risky, sometimes suprises us. But the best part is our relationship can be exciting at times but difficult to handle. Tapi kita still stay.

7

I would say it is completely impossible for me to love someone with broken pieces, but right now, I do.

Sayang, tahu benda ni cliche tapi I feel so happy because I am yours and you're mine.

but I cant stop overthinking about us. "What if"

So please. Dont hurt my feelings the way you used to do. Jangan tipu lagi. Dont leave me hanging or make me  wondering what I did wrong.

Sayang

I know you are reading this. Well I ran out of ways on how to tell you how much I love you and how much I care about you. So, thats why I made this acc.

I am sorry for giving up on us. I know it was too early to give up but well I did anyway. and...... I am sorry because I once hated you so much.

I just want to tell you, When I have you next to me, I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

and, when you are away, my mind and heart are still with you. 5 months knowing you is one of the  best things that happened to me.

Hahaha, I love you. I love you for wanting me and needing me by your side. Sayang, let me love you for no reason at all because that pure love means. Haih

I still couldnt get over the fact that all this is actually real, , really happening to me. Started from 6th Oct till now. I know that we are just eighteen and Its just a small number  for loving each other this hard, but I dont care because the only thing that matters; HOW WE STAYED.

5

I know that I shouldnt have told them about my crush. but. I did it anyway

4

my girlfriends  forced me to tell them who was my crush. they sat in a circle around me and asked me random names that they thought might be my crush. “Nope him?” “Nope.” “That guy?” “Nope.” “Then tell us!” “Nope I wont:”

But at the end. I told them. 

“I asked you his name for few times, but you said NO” -Y 

3 Busted :)(

days after my trial was over, I went home and tweeted “You are the reason why I want to come to school everyday” -A . HAHAHA then the next day, my girlfriends asked me who was that guy that I was referring to.

2

It started when I was looking for someone to make him as my crush. well I was new to the school, and It was normal to have a boyfriend, or... atleast a crush. so on my trial week, which was on August 2016, I saw him and I thought that he was so cute; handsome with his glasses. He is litle bit like a chinese boy! and I dont know why,  I finally claimed him as my crush, LOL 

beginning

well I am kind of new here. I thought I would be okay if I just keep it in my heart but now I am not so sure anymore. It started when I fell in love with my batchmate. For your information, I never planned to like him neither to love him as much as I do right now. Damn I wish I’d could turn back time to the first day I’ve met him. and change everything. maybe I shouldnt have replied to his ws nor followed his social media. But. I never regretted to love him. I dont know how to explain it but I truly love him. He perfectly fits to my ideal type; which is he’s good in sports, he’s kind and generous; especially to his parents, and he’s a good friend! and a good boy friend. We are not even together like other couples. We are just falling in love with each other and just going through with the flow. the fact that he is in love with me is such a happiness for me! because he is my crush and always be. When I went to my new high school, last year, I never thought that I would like him! He had that kind of serious face all the times, and I was kind of lazy to know him.