CRASHING DOWN

This will be the only thing i will post because its been the worst few days of my life and today has been the cherry on top that i can not bare no more. Today’s event crushed me spiritually, destroyed my faith and to be honest, i don’t even want to interact with no one at this point (even my friends felt my bad vibe). Other things has been lost in the past few days and now the person who introduced this website to me is the person who i want to speak with and be with during this hard time but i know the connection is gone so there is no point in talking to her about my problems. No words will come out.

As i stand staring into the night sky watching the fireworks go off, drinking my absoult vodka with dimmed lights, listening to video games, thinking what happened? *cries* no one to turn to but the look at my reflection through the window *extends window and looks down and takes a deep breath* even though i joke about it, maybe one day i’ll take that leap. 

Alone that’s how it’s meant to be. 

I hope you had a wonderful birthday @theonlypersonisi x