Virginia Zalbaza

Lately I’ve been thinking of you a lot. I guess it’s all still stuck in my head, and seeing you and Nydia all over my social media dorsn’t make it any easier to forget. I can’t exactly blame you for this, considering that this was a decision I made on my own. However, I will say that I experienced a great deal of sadness that you contributed to and it became overwhelming that I couldn’t take it. You had become one of my best friends and I admit I was the one who messed it up by developing feelings for you. You were never going to choose me, even though I had hoped someday it would be different for us, and I genuinely believed we could’ve been something great. You yourself even admitted to my being one of the only people you felt comfortable opening up to, and you struggled doing that with your partners. I don’t know why you didn’t see me as enough not just as a partner but as a friend. I was there for you, even when you decided to disappear numerous times and didn’t even feel bad about it. I still made the effort for you and stayed your friend even when no one else did. But I came to the conclusion that because I wasn’t some pretty girl I wasn’t worth your effort as a friend or a love interest. You only reached out when it was convenient for you and when you were feeling happy because some girl that wasn’t me made you happy. Seeing you with her, breaks my heart. It is a constant reminder that I wasn’t enough. And you didn’t even care enough to fight to stay in my life when I did that for you so much, time after time. I really hope she’s the one and if she isn’t you’ll find someone else, you always do. Take care of yourself, thank you for being my friend in times that you were. 

Jayvon Coleman

Well Jayvon as of today 9/14/20, you have become someone that I have spoken to the most within the last couple months. You were always a man of little words but big emotion and a even bigger heart. You have become someone who I know to be the greatest listener. Thank you for being there for me especially recently when I’ve been giving you all my girl problems. I take a while to respond but I have always appreciated your patience and understanding. I really loved it when you gave me that painting you did, it really did mean a lot that you put in the effort for me like that. I really do hope you end up finding the right girl, I know you will and I know she’s out there. I promise she’ll be one of the luckiest people out there because she’s with you. And I know you’ll always do right by her. Take care of yourself, and never stop being yourself

Marcus Harvey

I worried about you more so lately than before. My favorite memory of you was when we all went to the beach together that one time. I remember I used to give you rides home from work when I would see you walking late at night. I loved hanging out with you when we went to high school together, and honestly I am so proud of the young and handsome man that you have become. You are the literal definition of a glow up. You were always so sweet and so charismatic and the world needs more people like you, in the end I’m glad I was able to know the one and only you. Keep working hard hun, you always were so good at that. Keep surrounding yourself with good people and stay strong when you find yourself in the wrong atmosphere. By the way thank you for being the one that gave me Yaraby’s number. You don’t realize how much that meant for me and how grateful I’ll always be for that. Godspeed hun, don’t smoke too much weed.

Jesus Carranza

9/14/20

Jesus, when I first came up with this idea you were the first person I thought of. I think it’s because I was speaking to you just the other day. I wanted to leave some last words to you because I had always known you to in the end care about me in some way. I go remembering you as the mischievous kid I had for 12th grade English class, the guy who used to visit me at work when I worked at Liberty Tax. I honestly always believed in you, I hope you end up pursuing a career as a tattoo artist because you were always really good at it. Take care of yourself kid.