Dad I know you heard god call but now theres no one to pick me up when I fall or make me happy when I'm sick n I cant stick to path of good faith when I know your soul was took and all i got was a hundred bucks a month as a father figure go figure that id turn to a substance to teach me to dance n reach my heart like a father should n now my houses is light as a feather moving with the flow n I can't take it with out my bro who tried to leave me once again hiding his pain in a sleeve cause we weren't ment to be conseved n now I'm condemned to a life of pain n anguish running threw my veins as I vent n bent the metal wall I punch at breakfast lunch and dinner no wonder im such a fuckin sinner cause my inners are tore up n my heart was tooken when I was born n now I've been sworn to live the hard life watching my buddy drag that knife across his wrist cause he's pissed he fucked up his relationship cause he would dip in and out n now I pout n count my blessings not getting over ten I can't even grin any more cause my whole body's sore from Workin the work of the poor till im hurt more than my core who's even keepin score of my pain it's geting fuckin insane man I miss you dad I can't let you fade to the shadows of the meadows all my dead dogs went to n my mind's a big fog What am i, what am i, be I man that can't stand. Or a lost child waking in the dark fallowing sparks of the past with out a man to raise me n praise me all i got was a beating from a meth addict so dont be pissed if I count my blessings like dressing not no thousand island but like ranch cause it's expected that I had a roof over my head but I never got a bed frame I'm not Like the same but I don't bitch like it wasn't fair cause I don't care they got a loving family n I got a puzzle with the wrong pieces so I sit n write some songs with a pen I found next to some tong