if your body has been feeling depleted, tired or in pain for whatever reason, i wanna ask of you to be extra gentle to yourself while handling it. i know it’s common for us to feel pressured to push past our physical and mental limits, but if your body has been giving you signs that something doesn’t feel right, it’s important to listen to it and remember that it’s your home. you need & deserve to take care of it especially when it is calling for your help and attention.

The fact that I haven’t really posted here since I got into a healthy relationship sort of proves a lot about what I was using Tumblr for

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relating to marianne sheridan is feeling awful about yourself until someone wants you, needing someone else's validation to feel good but never getting it, hating yourself but also thinking you're the smartest person in every room, achieving but things that don't even matter that much to you just to prove to yourself and everyone around you that you can, the constant need to show everyone that you're worth something but still always feeling like you're never doing enough, wanting to work more but not being able to make yourself do anything, gifted kid burnout, feeling alone most of the time, feeling like you were born sad and can never be truly happy for a longer period of time, wanting to end it but being in love with life...

that part in normal people where he starts crying to his therapist about how he thought everything would be different in college, a good different, a good life, better friends, but life turned out a lot worse and he doesn’t have any friends and now he can’t even go back to what he thought he could do better than. there’s nothing left to go back to. the most fucked up thing about childhood is how you spent the entirety of it wishing you were older but then you are older and if it’s horrible, you don’t have the security blanket of saying “it’ll be better when i’m older” like you did when you were a kid cause you are older now & it’s not better, you have no real friends and you can’t even go back to being a kid and it’s a horrible horrible realisation

okay, but, like, I feel like we need to emphasize more on how important it is to have a partner you can just talk to. I was telling this to someone the other day, but Hollywood and media focuses so much on sexual tension and explosive passion in a relationship, and while those are completely valid and understandable things for certain, not all, people to desire (even I myself do), I feel like there’s barely enough light casted onto the value of being able to converse with your partner and relish in their company even in the most neutral discussion. I can barely count how many films, particularly romance ones, have emphasized on the importance and value of being able to speak to a partner like they are your close friend, and being able to absolutely adore their company, and engage in conversation with them about anything and everything, even if it isn’t romantic. Lexi and Fez, Aristotle and Dante, Marianne and Heloise, Jesse and Celine, Connell and Marianne. so many people adore these couples because they showcase such a human, genuine connection through conversation. Lexi and Fez discussing God and the backlash of social media. Aristotle and Dante’s talks on finding identity and how life feels better when the shoes are kicked off. Marianne and Heloise debating over what it meant when Orpheus turned around, and the release found within music. Celine speaking to Jesse about how the media is controlling our minds and how she thinks she really loves someone when she can detect every detail of them, Jesse speaking to Celine about when he saw his deceased grandmother in the sprinkle of a hose and the things he remembers his parents having said to him. Connell and Marianne sitting under the summer sun, eating ice cream, discussing the differences in their class and how money can be simultaneously corrupt and indescribably appealing. all of these couples have made me realize how while passionate kisses under the rain and loud proclamations of your love for someone are valuable for certain people, it is also inexpressibly important to find someone who you can linger in the passenger seat for just to hear what they thought about the movie you watched last night. someone who you take your time putting your shoes on for just to hear about the physical sensation they got when the second last line of your favourite song reverberated through their headphones.

me when i realize that the media i consume during bad times that makes me feel seen and understood is also making me wrongly believe that refusing to let anyone in is a reasonable coping skill, fueling my self-hatred, and worsening my ability to be vulnerable with the people i care about:

"describe your symptoms" brother i have felt like this since i was 12 unrelentingly

i would like to propose a new accessibility feature for movies where every time a brown-haired white man comes on screen they tell me which one he is

𝑐𝑢𝑡𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑜𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠 *, ‘✯

Your intrusive thoughts can’t hurt you. Your intrusive thoughts don’t make you a bad person. Your intrusive thoughts are just that. Intrusive thoughts.