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taurtise · 7 months

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Fic Notes

Just typing them out since there's a lot and it's easier just to type it, and better for anyone who has a hard time just reading/needs a screen reader

Super long so, enjoy <3 If you wanna do stuff with any of this you can, just leave credit or a note to me if you take heavy/direct inspo and stuff from it

Early game/kinda set-up stuff: Scar talks to Grian being like "hey man. You seem stressed and territorial, you good? Oh. Oh you have a refugee, okay cool. Can I give him cookies?"

Taurtis and Pearl are besties bc I say so. Pearl's favorite past time with him is picking his brain for stuff that he's seen but she hasn't before, and they bond over liking weird alien stuff. She shows him her collection and 1.18 update investigation room.

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Scar "you can't keep him in your house forever, G."

Gri "And why not!"

Scar "He's a person! How would you feel if you were holed up in someone's house and not allowed to leave?"

Gri "Shut up." (Cause, yknow, Sam locked him in the basement for three days that one time)

(Taurtis wouldn't actually be unallowed to leave, Grian would just be wary and anxious and paranoid about it)

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Late night bed talks. One being where Taurtis asks "Grian, am I funny?" and G goes "Yeah, you're really funny. What, did you make a lame dad joke today?" And Taurtis pauses a bit before rolling onto his side, facing away and responding "Oh yeah, it was a super lame joke." And Grian kinda catches on that, hey this is weird behavior for Taurtis, and decides to confront him about it, hence these lines:

T "What, am I just comedic relief to you? Is that still all I am?"

G "You've always been more than just a joke, don't say that."

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Mid-game: Scar's "Hey man you're a bit off" turns to "dude you're extremely bad right now. You need to relax. It's okay. Chill pill, my dude." And Grian is a stubborn bitch that keeps pushing his help away, so Scar tries to get Taurtis to help him with Grian.

Winter hits and Grian spends most of his days sleeping due to instincts, or something, idk it's an excuse to make him sleep and have Taurtis be crazy amounts of domestic with him. Taurtis "accidentally" makes too much breakfast to finish on his own so he wakes up Grian to share it with him. (He called Scar to see if he'd want it, not wanting to wake Grian, but Scar told him it'd be good for the pesky bird to have a meal before sleeping more)

Grian starts seeing shit due to his stress and the fact that the watchers have been following Taurtis this whole time without him realizing up to a certain point. Inspired by me seeing the foggy moon and going "huh that looks like a watcher eye." Thank you, Grian introject moment, pogchamp.

Xisuma starts asking people during casual chats if they've noticed anything different about the server. When he asks Grian, G lies and says he hasn't when he knows the watchers have found a way to get to Hermitcraft too, not wanting to expose himself and risk being looked into deeper from before joining HC. They know him and Pearl were in a server before, but not that it was a server full of watchers and eventual destruction. This causes Grian to get more stressed, develop worse insomnia, and try and figure out a way to send Taurtis home faster. He tries to ignore the inner misery and prioritize the safety of everyone else, but internally struggles with reassuring himself that Taurtis will even be safe after leaving.

Grian starts using his watcher powers when alone to influence the others to do things, just to show the other watchers that he's doing his job and they don't have to stay. They aren't convinced until him and two other watchers have a direct confrontation, in watcher forms rather than their human-esque forms, maybe spend a whole chapter showing their conversation before Xisuma locates where they are due to the heightened levels of their presence, confronting Grian now about what he was thinking and why all of this is happening.

Grian finds out that the other watchers lurking over the server managed to gain enough control to start forming an evo portal, finding it half finished and deciding to use his own control to make "clues". The clues are fake and only there to steer Taurtis away from the portal, but the other watchers change what Grian's clues say to lead him towards it no matter what. Taurtis sees the portal behind an evo symbol and gets mad at Grian, thinking he's tying to send him back to evo to be alone like he was before. (I didn't watch evo, just wanted to find a way to make it appear like Grian abandoned him from Taurtis's perspective.) Grian tries explaining himself, but Taurtis is done listening.

Taurtis starts showing more obvious signs that his sense of confusion from the down under has caused occasional confusion to places he's in, even if he's been there long term. Just a lil, lil somethin, y'know?

Grian's psychotic (literally) and Taurtis is autistic. Not mid game but just had to put that out there.

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Long game/end game: (omg just like avenger's end game- shut up. No. Stop.)

There's a sort of banquet to celebrate the ending of season nine as they progress into season ten.

Taurtis has to face the truth that he's never wanted to leave in the first place. He had to accept that fact mid game, but here he has to say it outright to Grian who's absorbed himself into figuring out every nook and cranny and function of that portal, so much that the skulk and purple has grown more on him.

The purple area spreads more on his right arm since that's the one he stick into the rift after activating the portal again. Something that's noticed overtime as he continues experimenting on and interacting with the rift and the area it was at in general.

-----Additional Notes/How Watcher presence affects players-----

A large amount of Watcher presence will cause listeners and the watched to feel paranoid, sick or uneasy. The more watching them, the worse the effects are. This is how Grian connects the rift's sudden behavior change to the watchers, Mumbo pointing out how he's felt the past few days one night while researching and experimenting on the portal with him.

And then this all was going to lead up to an additional fic to the series where they'd have to do a life series to satisfy the Watchers's need for violence, but the watchers found a way to strike a deal with Sam to make things more interesting, and Grian and Sam end up being soulbound for it with Grian barely winning by killing Sam in the end after everyone else has died out.

Similar to Double Life, but would have more stakes and need for staying close to soulmates as well as different effects and changes to players with the loss of lives and distance between soulmates.

#taurtis x grian #taurian #hermitcraft grian #watcher grian #slight evo smp #hermitcraft fanfic #idk about other tags #just take this and let it be my final post before leaving #ciao #also if you wanna take these ideas and run with them go ahead #just leave some sort of credit or note if it's inspo/heavy referenced

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taurtise · 7 months

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I’m abandoning this account soon and discontinuing the fic most likely for good.

I’m sorry for getting hopes up but I really can’t bring myself to work on this fic or mcyt stuff anymore, not for a while at least.

When I get off of work, I’ll be posting a screenshot of my notes for plans that I had with the fic. Very sorry again and some of it was fun, like, half a year ago.

Personal stuff, defo a vent but I need this all off my chest and out there publicly to try and heal from everything. Warning for animal death and eating disorder talk

In the time of just starting the fic I’ve gone through emotional and mental abuse, two breakups where I was getting mistreated and neglected throughout both of the relationships, financial struggles that are only now starting to look up and get better, and the loss of my oldest cat, Oliver.

I had him since 2019, and always treated and saw him as my own son, helping him get comfortable and feel safe around people again starting with me. I’ve had to watch his health decline the past two months and the week of his passing was extremely hard, and I had a hard crash the day after being broken up with when I had to clean his blood up from my living room multiple times.

My eating disorder got out of hand as well, taking a hard decline to just barely managing a single meal a day for a good month straight until my mom started to show support and help with it. I’m slowly getting better, but it’s hard to deal with the damage this has caused to my mental and physical health. Finally getting on antidepressants have been helping with this as well.

While I’ve had lots of cool and fun ideas for this fic, it’s a bit of a sour spot for me now. It’s hard not to associate it with just how much I’ve struggled and had to try and cope with since starting it, I won’t be removing it but if I get back into writing again, it’ll be from a separate account. I’ll also be making a new Tumblr, but not sharing it to anyone that isn’t close or trustworthy to me.

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taurtise · 8 months

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So many hot babes started following me all of a sudden, ladies get in line and chill out some, one at a time

(Sudden overtime influx of bot accounts again, I’ll get rid of them whenever I get around to it <3 I just find it funny)

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taurtise · 8 months

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Nevermind horrors keep happening and even more shit went wrong tonight, not even gonna try and give an idea of when I might try to come back with literally anything

Personal update, not fic update, sorry again

I had a doctor’s appointment where bloodwork was done and multiple results came back abnormal, the biggest ones being a heavy deficiency in vitamin D and a high iron saturation. My iron saturation is probably the reason for my now nearly constant joint pain, hell while typing this I can’t get back asleep because of how uncomfortable it is right now.

I’ve wanted to try and write but again, the financial situation with my family has been extremely stressful as well as other things popping up. It may be even longer before I’m able to make any progress, I’ve barely started on a wip and don’t have anything close to a draft still.

Good update is I’ve finally started on antidepressants, specifically Lexapro. It hasn’t been a full week yet, but I’m hoping I’ll get more motivation and push to do stuff besides just sitting and playing games. That’s really all I have energy for besides work and sometimes I’m too tired even for that.

If you’re reading this, thank you for giving me your time and sorry for once again turning this page into a sorta vent place? Kinda? But not really? Still, thank you again <3 I might try and do some random one-shot or incredibly short piece just to work on getting back into things, but no promises on that

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taurtise · 8 months

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Personal update, not fic update, sorry again

I had a doctor’s appointment where bloodwork was done and multiple results came back abnormal, the biggest ones being a heavy deficiency in vitamin D and a high iron saturation. My iron saturation is probably the reason for my now nearly constant joint pain, hell while typing this I can’t get back asleep because of how uncomfortable it is right now.

I’ve wanted to try and write but again, the financial situation with my family has been extremely stressful as well as other things popping up. It may be even longer before I’m able to make any progress, I’ve barely started on a wip and don’t have anything close to a draft still.

Good update is I’ve finally started on antidepressants, specifically Lexapro. It hasn’t been a full week yet, but I’m hoping I’ll get more motivation and push to do stuff besides just sitting and playing games. That’s really all I have energy for besides work and sometimes I’m too tired even for that.

If you’re reading this, thank you for giving me your time and sorry for once again turning this page into a sorta vent place? Kinda? But not really? Still, thank you again <3 I might try and do some random one-shot or incredibly short piece just to work on getting back into things, but no promises on that

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taurtise · 10 months

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Also if anybody knows alternatives I need ones that DON'T require me to download unless it's also available on the chrome web store or play store, I use an old ass chromebook and don't have an actual legit computer </3

I'm gonna nasty shit everywhere I swear to fuck, GOOGLE DOCS IS USING OUR WRITING TO FUCKING TRAIN AI APPARENTLY?!?!!?

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taurtise · 10 months

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you dont get it (you literally probably do) I USE GOOGLE DOCS FUCKING CONSTANTLY. I'VE BEEN USING IT FOR YEARS. YOU MEAN AI IS READING MY FANFICTION ABOUT TENSE EX-BOYKISSERS AND ONESHOT WIPS OF GAY HEDGEHOGS?!?!?!

STOP TRAINING YOURSELF TO WRITE CRINGEFAIL HOMOS!!!! FUCKING EXPLODE LIKE A TESLA ALREADY!!!!!!

I'm gonna nasty shit everywhere I swear to fuck, GOOGLE DOCS IS USING OUR WRITING TO FUCKING TRAIN AI APPARENTLY?!?!!?

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taurtise · 10 months

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I'm gonna nasty shit everywhere I swear to fuck, GOOGLE DOCS IS USING OUR WRITING TO FUCKING TRAIN AI APPARENTLY?!?!!?

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taurtise · 10 months

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Waves

Hi I'm gonna start trying to be active again now that June's over.

I'm not homophobic, just traumatized (SORRY THIS SOUNDED FUNNY TO ADD GIGGLE)

Also I don't have a Twitter anymore <3

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taurtise · 11 months

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Personal Update

I probably won't have anything to show for this month.

The past week alone have been daily trauma flashbacks or breakdowns and it feels like when I'm done recovering from one, another one starts. I wanted to try and be optimistic and "push past it" but having all irl support I used to have for the other anniversaries gone now, it's hitting harder than it has before, and without having a 'bigger and worse' problem to focus on the anniversary is almost all that I can think of 24/7.

I'm not trying to vent, I just want to say that while I'm trying not to have such a long pause between updates again, I can't handle really anything this month and the first half of July. I'll be deleting this the next day (probably unless I forget to), it's just been really hard for me and I know it's only going to keep getting worse until the trauma anniversary is over.

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taurtise · 11 months

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This site has been going around Twitter trans accounts quite a bit lately, so just pointing out here too that it'll do fuck all, they're exploiting trans people at a time when hrt is particularly hard to access and please don't give them your money

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taurtise · 11 months

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Hello everybody! Right now Nova Scotia is experiencing the worst wildfires ever recorded for our province. People will be without homes for months if not years. We are in the middle a housing crisis so these people who have lost their homes may not be able to find a place to stay. The smoke will also harm disabled people and others with pre existing health conditions as well as people without the ability to retreat into safe housing.

“Firefighters in Nova Scotia are battling the largest wildfire in the Atlantic province's history. Officials say the fire on the southern tip of the province has burned about 20,000 hectares, with flames reaching nearly 100m (328ft) in height. Meanwhile, another fire that has forced the evacuation of thousands near Halifax, the largest city, continues to burn.” (Via BBC)

According to HRM, those funds will help people rebuild in the days to come with basic needs, groceries, connection and mental support.

Please donate if you can. Reblog if you can’t. Nova Scotia Strong 🇨🇦

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taurtise · 11 months

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Welp. I jinxed myself. Probably won’t get any writing done this week since I had got another concussion last night, except this time I went to the ER for it since I was having a hard time talking and forming sentences. IM OKAY PLEEEASE DONT WORRY, the shed door just got a bit too rough with its kiss to my FUCKING HEAD AGAIN.

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taurtise · 11 months

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Can you draw the hermit girls pls I’ll give you my liver 🥺/j

yeahhh! here :D sorry its all a bit wonkyy <3

#god i love women #i love women #i love women so much

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taurtise · 11 months

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@ PEOPLE WHO RANDOMLY DM TO COMPLIMENT WRITERS, YOU ALL DESERVE THE WORLD

I HAVE BEEN SOBBING AT 3 AM FOR NEARLY FIFTEEN MINUTES NOW BECAUSE I CHECKED MY ACCOUNT TO SEE SOMEONE GAVE COMPLIMENTS??? IM TRYING NOT TO START SOBBING AGAIN RN TYPING THIS AOOUGUGHGHH

GONNA PUSH MYSELF TO TRY AND GET AT LEAST TWO PAGES DOWN BY THE END OF THIS WEEK (THEN AGAIN I HAVE MY BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY SOON SO. IDK)

(AND JUNE IS A VERY BIG BAD TRAUMA MONTH FOR ME BUT OUUUU IF IM NOT A SILLY GUY THATS GONNA TRY ITS BEST THEN WHAT AM I HUH???)

#YOU GUYS DESERVE THE FINEST LIFE HAS TO OFFER #RICHES? YOURS #HAPPIES? YOURS #BITCHES? YOURS #UNLESS YOU DONT WANT BITCHES THEN YOU GET HOMIES #THE MORE HOMIES THE MERRIER AFTER ALL #ANYWAYS OUUUUUU I LOVE WHEN PEOPLE ARE RANDOMLY SWEET

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taurtise · 11 months

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I’ve lost it

#SOBBING SO VIOLENTLY #HE IS SO DOGBOY CODED FOR REALS #HES A PUPYPYYYY #Going insane in these tags right now #I love him #Taurtis dogboy so so real

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taurtise · 11 months

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Giggles cutely

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