lilly | 26 | she/they | lots of things but especially friends at the table | currently watching hunter x hunter (2011) at an excruciatingly slow pace along with media club plus
obsessed with Kim kitsuragi and how good he is at hiding his wetpatheticsadness. he's so so good at it he even fooled Harry can opener du bois. he even fooled himself. he's a tin soldier. nothing but thin walls and hollow insides. he has hobbies but only indulges them so privately that no one else knows about them. he doesn't even make time to eat unless you bat your eyelashes at him. he wants to punch the little cardboard pieces out of the new board game but won't let you know until after you've already done it. he asks you if doing speed helped you be a better detective not to reprimand you but because he's considering doing it himself. he has a little blue notebook containing all of his thoughts that you can never look inside (blue is for mystery. / the blue heart. don't look into it). he falls so madly in love with a complete disaster of a messy bear within 4 days of meeting him he can take a bullet for him and defend him against his own institution and nurse him back to health while sitting vigil for 2 days with no sleep. all because the guy is fun and likes to get to know him and thinks he's cool. he thinks about Harry's girthy biceps for what is assumedly at least a day or two. he only lets himself have one cigarette a day unless harry doesn't suggest he transfer to the 41st, a rule he never breaks otherwise even when he was concussed and alone. he even has autism
[id: a digital sketch of kim kitsuragi and harry du bois from disco elysium playing boggle. the two are frantically scribbling down words in their respective notes while studying the boggle board. harry on the right is being consulted by his skills visual calculus, encyclopedia, reaction speed, and hand/eye coordination, who are all similarly absorbed and frantic over the game. /end id]
Cannot stop thinking about Ruby and how brutally Klaasje fucks her over despite everyone in Martinaise's clear affection for her. How everyone seems to like Ruby and her 'gruff charm,' how she gets passionate about radio technology and loves movies from the 20s, likes 'a beer on the beach to watch the sunset'. She's an 'old lady whisperer,' Isobel likes her and even defends her, the Hardie boys are clearly very fond of her. Even when you're being blasted by her pale latitude compressor, it's hard not to like her at least a bit. She tested it on herself first! The Half-Light reaction of sympathetic fear to Klaasje's accusations, and then Drama cutting in to point out that the fear isn't to do with Ruby, it's the fear of being arrested that Klaasje is feeling. Her first response, out of fear of the RCM and the Moralintern, is to use the presumed biases and homophobia of these RCM officers as leverage to pin the blame on Ruby, even as nearly every other scrap of information you can collect describing Ruby's personality contradicts it.
Just when I thought I couldn’t love Rhetoric more, I found out what the Highest Passive Rhetoric Check in Disco Elysium is:
That’s Right. When you max out your Rhetoric skill, you become the king of cutting through bullshit. It fully breaks the fourth wall, looks you in the eyes, and says, “We’re gonna teleport you because we don’t have the money to animate you climbing a ladder.”
depictions of the ace experience never seem to include the nightmare-borne skeleton creature from hell so kudos to the dimension 20 team for their commitment to accurate rep
When I was younger and researching the autism diagnosis criteria and symptoms, I thought “oh I couldn’t POSSIBLY be autistic.” Because when I read “takes everything literally” I thought it literally meant EVERYTHING and I was like “I don’t take EVERYTHING literally, just most things!” And I just realized the other day that it didn’t actually mean EVERYTHING and that was an overstatement.