I hate only being a consumer of creation. Reading other people's writing, seeing other people's artwork, watching other people's videos, movies, TV. Wishing so badly to create myself. I am a slave to the doom scroll sitting hours on my phone hoping anything on this tiny screen will make me feel something again. I want to create. But I am tired. And overworked. And burnt out. And it's been so long that the creator in me has shriveled up to a husk, any attempts at reviving it are painful and slow. I know I have it in me but I don't know how to get it out anymore. I'm afraid it's too late.