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We really are the ‘used to be silent readers now have a never ending list of fics to comment on’ squad 🚗👯‍♀️✨

Definitely understandable. I have a love-hate relationship with rewriting fics. On one hand I have grown as a writer and when I look back at old fics I want to change it but on the other if I do re-write the fic it won’t be the same story. I’ve been thinking about rewriting fics and having the revised and old version up but idk we will see how it plays out. I do feel as an author the choice is truly up to you and if you want to go either route it’s fine either way. You're not going to please all audiences but as long as you do what you feel is right for the story then go with that choice. Yeah, having works that are never finished is real, I’ve got a couple of wips that probably will forever be wips….but no matter what I still want to keep them because they’ll always hold a special place in my heart. They might never get the chance to be published but that doesn’t mean I love them any less, some things are just never meant to be fully cooked

Most of the time I feel like those people are new to fandom and/or non-writers themselves and your feelings are 100% valid. We aren’t machines that can constantly produce writing. We have lives outside of this and burn-out is real (I personally have been struggling with this, I’m not inspired to write all the time and sometimes years go by before I start writing again). I have to give you props for trying and finishing your fics tho. That truly is admirable 💗

Reader insert fics are truly gold. During my younger teen years that was all I was reading and then older teen years I shifted to character x character fics but now I read a mix of both, mainly x reader fics at the moment 😜. Reader insert authors are truly the goats of fandom. There is just something so special, even healing, about ‘being’ in the fic. It’s like another level of escaping reality

Oh, yeah! I'm 100% one of those people to leave kudos as a guest and logged into my account. Why won’t you let me rekudo a fic ao3???? Let me love it even more, I have all this love to give!!! Guilty as charged with the private bookmarks. My reading list is between me and whatever higher beings you believe in lol. I might give out fic recs to fandom friends if we read similar fics but some things are so unhinged that my lips are sealed 🤐

Knives got to know reader and wanted to wife her up right then and there 🤣. I think that’s one of my favorite parts of writing fanfics are the little author notes in the doc while the fic is being written!! That little note right there is creative me cooking up an idea. I just love her so much!!! Even if it just myself writing these notes on the docs, I see how much love is going into this and make me so happy

Young me was really big into romance/otome games (I still dabble with some but not as much as I used to) and it was always the side/non-romanceable characters that caught my interest. Please, I beg you game devs I want them!!!! What I fall victim to real easily are edits of these characters on tiktok. I’ll be scrolling on the app and see the media and think ‘that’s cool’ but there will always be that one edit that basically ruins me and well guess I’m into them now lol. Now I gotta check that fic out. Swan dive??? I don't think I’m familiar with the tag. What does it entail? Oh, the character I was referring to is Astarion! There is a lot of controversy about him (slight spoiler) as an ascendant vampire vs him as a vampire spawn tho, I stay away from all the drama. Both are equally hot to me in their own ways

Those females be girlbossing 💅🏼. The equal parenting 🥹. I love how both male and female take care of the young equally and the primary care of the chicks isn’t pushed to one parent or the other

I’m not as familiar with tumblr as other socmeds but I agree with you there! I love the asks function so much. Especially since you can ask as anon too, I don’t really care if my identity is revealed but there is a level of comfort to ask anonymously, I feel like I can express myself with no worries. I wasn’t on tumblr until recently but I did hear about the ban on basically anything that wasn’t sfw and the impact it had. Ooofff, nothing like having your characters take your fic in a completely different direction then what you originally had planned. Every author I’ve met has said that the characters are their own person and I completely agree. Like,,, I’m the translator not the creator, they tell me their story and I just write it down into words. I have no idea what these guys are doing half the time 😂. When I was more active on my main that’s all I would read, give me all the feels. Mmmmmm, any fic that has dark elements and I go feral like a rabid raccoon. Agreed, I love fluff fics just as much and every now and I’ll read a fluff fic to change things up but there is something about the dark elemented fics that itches my brain just right

Don’t be sorry for long responses! I’m having a blast having these long, in depth convos!!! I’m excited that I can talk with someone who has similar interests!!! In my experience being in fandom has been a little isolating in a way. Yes, I’m reading fics that people write about things that I also enjoy but I don’t have anyone to converse with about these things. None of my irl friends share the same interests and I’m on the shy side (just now trying to interact more) which I’m working on so the fact that I can scream about these things with you is refreshing!! These asks do bring me much joy and I look forward to reading them each time 🫂

Putting this under a cut because it got super long again.

XD For real, haha! Not only was I personally inspired by people commenting on every chapter of my works, but also it made me super sad to see one of my favorite writers when I was younger have to turn off comments on their fics because they kept getting hate for it. :( I really wish I could have left something positive for them back then before it was too late.

Oh, same! It's like,… As you grow as a writer, there's so much more that you learn about writing that's like: pacing, characterization, punctuation and grammar, getting better at being descriptive,… Etc. And… On one hand, seeing you've grown as a writer can be both embarrassing looking at how your older stuff used to be as well as a feeling of accomplishment. Like, 'Wow! I've come so far!' And… That's kind of my issue right now with this older stuff. It's like,… I can go back and rewrite it and make it "better", but then it's not going to be what it was before. And part of me isn't sure that I want to change some of this to that degree… But still, maybe there's someone out there who will enjoy the changes? I dunno. I'm trying to be positive about it. XD But the hard truth is that some of my older stuff just… Didn't have a well structured plot. I was literally writing by the seat of my pants, so… I have to put in a lot of work if I want those to be re-written and finished. And… I think two of them were one of those 'insert character into the plot' fics and uh… DX Makes it difficult to "re-write" when most of it is literally just what happens in the show. I gotta figure out how to make it my own somehow, and that's gonna be time consuming. I can do it, but it's gonna be rough!

It's definitely a tough issue. :/ Like, you grow so much as a writer and you see all the mistakes a younger, less experienced you have made, but at the end of the day, there's always going to be at least that one person who prefers the older version, so I totally understand that pain from both perspectives. I totally agree, though! Like, as much as I will be sad to see the story go like in the case I mentioned, it is entirely up to that writer! If they wanna delete it, if it being there is a terrible reminder of something for them, if it would be better for that person if it were just gone entirely, that is entirely their decision. And I don't think it's fair for readers to "re-upload" their works, even if tons of people enjoy it. :/ You're taking away that writer's personal decision right there! You're not respecting them as the writer of that fic! It's valid and fair to be upset they deleted it, but to just re-upload it like that… It's disrespectful. If you have your own personal copy for personal use, that's different, and I think even sharing it with other people through email is not the same as re-uploading it entirely. The writer might not like that being done, but it's not being posted in its entirety by someone who did not write it on a public platform.

Oh, yes! :D First and foremost, write for you! It's your story, take it where you wanna take it! Even if people disagree, that is entirely your choice! Someone out there will enjoy it for what it is! XD Oh boy, I feel that in my soul. Some of this stuff… It's probably never going to see the light of day, just forever in my drafts. Oh gosh. :') Ugh. I feel that. Like, I have a few stuff that's like, has no plot and it's just one scene, but I don't think it's long enough to post, but there's really nowhere I have in mind to take it and it's just… It's just there. I can't throw it away because I like it for what it is, but it's just… It's staying here for now, maybe forever, who knows? And some stuff, I really do think is just for you, you know? Just meant for your eyes and no one else's, even if people might enjoy it for what it is, sometimes there's certain stuff that's just for you and that's okay.

DX Oh boy, I certainly get that impression of, 'Oh, you're definitely not a writer, my friend,' sometimes. And it's like the fandom ettiquette is certainly not there in some people, but I also don't wanna be mean. But really, I can only handle so much before it's weighing me down. I understand impatience and sadness when you feel like something has been abandoned,… But people really gotta understand that we're all people living our own lives and sometimes death or medical emergencies that keep you from continuing are real factors in some of these situations. Responsibilities, and people grow and change over time and maybe what was their driving force in inspiration just… Isn't felt anymore. We grow and change as people constantly, and some messages of these creations change over time as well. Oh gosh, not the burn-out! D: I do not wanna push myself to that point ever again! ToT It's dreadful. (Oh, I totally feel that. Several points, I have questioned why I was even writing to begin with, and I do this all the time now with my other hobbies. It's just… It just comes and goes.) Aww, thank you! :') All my life I've just been creating things and never finishing them or starting games or books and just… Setting them down, even when I'm so close to finishing them. I even put down Dragon Age: Origins a few years ago despite being right there at the Archdemon fight at the end! And I just never picked it back up again! And part of me is just so tired!

XD I have checks and calculates real quick 413 documents in my documents folder! And while not all are stories, quite a lot are, and some have several in one document. Like,, I'm tired of not finishing things. 😮‍💨 So much half drawn art and comics, things I pick up and then put down and forget about, it sucks! So many unfinished stories I felt guilty for posting and then just deleting in the past… I don't wanna be that person anymore. And all this time, a lot of it has just been fear, fear of failing or being judged, people thinking my works are too out of character or absurd and out there or cringy, or being left with that feeling of 'what next?' That loss of my hyperfixation… Not realizing that I was gonna lose it eventually anyway by not finishing it, not playing it more and engaging with it more. I dunno. I really hope that other people can find this too, and while it fluctuates and I still get down sometimes, I want other people to also not be afraid to try new things, and even fail sometimes. It's a part of life, we live and grow and learn from our mistakes, but a lot of stuff I've seen online as of late has been hateful and anti-growth, anti-change. And it really makes me sad because I gotta wonder what they're going through to have them feel and be this way.

They really are! :D They've been such an inspiration to me since I first found them! Oh, same! XD Fanfiction has been such a huge part of my life since discovering it! And while I'm mostly back in the x reader side of things, there are several ships and oc stories that hold a special place in my heart and ships I check in sometimes for. You've just reminded me of several fics I gotta re-find and read and comment on now! Ah, I kinda wanna go back to FF.net too! I read so many oc fics on there that I adored! XD Transformers, DBZ, and Zelda,… I used to even read a few to my grandmother back in the day because I loved them and thought they were funny! I wanna know who was the first to start writing reader-inserts! Whoever they are, they've started something I don't know if they could have ever foreseen! For real! 😭 I have no idea where I'd be today if it weren't for them! I feel like I'd be an entirely different person…

XD I've started doing that when I'm not logged in. Here you go, writer! Have more! But it's unfortunate that you can't do that with locked works. :') I'd love to be able to give them more love too, but you can only see those while logged in so I can only ever give them one. I didn't even know you could privately bookmark until last year or so! XD I think younger me was overwhelmed by everything in the box and I've never really used notes or tags because I didn't know what to put, and I don't think I quite knew what 'Rec' meant and didn't bother with that box, but now that I know about it I just!! I get so emotional whenever I see a little heart bookmark, like?? You liked it enough you'd recommend it?!? :'o Kinda makes me guilty for just bookmarking everything and not adding anything extra, even when I absolutely adored the work! You're totally valid for that, but my bookmarks are all public for everyone to see. 🫡 You're taking a risk you go in there. You don't know what you'll find. XD It's the wild west, my friend! But I definitely feel that. It's like,… Even though mine are public, I'm not talking to anyone about them unless someone opens up first. XD And no one in real life knows about my bookmarks except for one person (that I know of, at least), and we're mostly into the same things so we can talk about these kinds of things free of judgement.

XD For real, haha! :o Oh yes! XD I'm usually like, 'Oh, you.' to myself. And I love when other writers share their particularly funny ones! It's always so fun! X3 AAA- God, I love writing! Even with all the downsides! My creative, innermost me when not dampened by the cruelties of the world is just so whimsy! No burdens, just carefree inner me.

:o Oh, I feel that! DX Yessss! Omg! For me that was Sten in Origins! The moment I was like, 'So tell me about yourself.' and he just goes, 'No.' XD He had me! I laughed out of disbelief and was like, 'Oh, I love you so much!' And then not me out here falling for the literal dragon who stole my heart in Dragon's Dogma. <.< Finding out you could romance and marry people and then… Not being interested in any of them?? XD And then the situation with Garrus just had me! I wonder if I'd played the game back then, would I have also wanted to romance him in the first ME? (I'm holding out on romance just so I can romance him in ME2). Who I really wanted from the start was Nihlus, but, well,… <.< Omg!!! I know what you mean! I don't really use Tiktok, but I've seen some of those edits that have been posted on Youtube and I just!! Aaaaa- Security Breach edits had me by the throat for a little while. Oh! The full tag was "this will either be a slow burn or a swan dive no in between we die like men" and I thought it was hilarious when I first found it a few years ago! XD It felt like such a mood! Me to myself while writing: 'Are we slow burning it or are we just gonna dive right into this romance? Who knows!' :o Oh!! He's the vampire in question! Ah, I see. 😬 I'm not a fan of that sort of drama, but I totally see what you're saying. 👀 Either can have their own appeal depending on preferences and the way the writer tackles it!

XD Thank you! The women can be pretty spicy. They're 'take no shit' more often than not, though you will have some more timid, they can be just as fierce should push come to shove. And some are even more fiesty when it comes to the males proving themselves, as in, they're gonna challenge the male to a fight, and only when he can beat her in combat will she respect and accept him as a mate. Yes!! X3 Ah, I'm such a sucker for the equal parenting when it comes to these kinds of fics. I'm not really a fan of the 'male just fucks and then leaves' in my monster fics. I gotta have that closeness, the fluffy soft goodness!! That familial bond and equal parenting! Don't you fucking dare leave without cuddles right after sex!! What the fuck! Get back here!

Oh, yes, same! :D There are so many asks I might not have sent to people if it hadn't been for the anon feature! It's such a comfort to be able to talk about things like this or send questions for clarification that I feel might come across as like, "stupid" for asking, like it's supposed to be common knowledge when I just don't know what it means, and the pressure is like, removed when it can't be traced back to your main or anything. I also find it nice you can send asks from sideblogs for this reason too! Like, you can engage with stuff you feel like you don't want people coming to your other blogs for, and so on. :( Yeah. It was rough! Now you can search the nsfw tag again, but you still cannot search the monster (terato) tag anymore! So much good stuff in there! Gone! So many blogs, even sfw ones, gone. Just bam! And that was it. Couldn't even get their accounts back in most cases from what I'd heard. DX Their flag bot too would flag pictures of sand thinking it was skin and so on! It was just… Terrible. I lost some of my favorite creators, I can't find certain images anymore from them, their works are just gone! You can find some of it in other places, but quite a bit is terrible quality and there's a lot missing. :(

And I used to write and post nsfw headcanons and stuff on here, and then my stuff wouldn't be seen by people because it had 'blacklisted tags' by the website itself, and the only way you'd see them in most cases was actually looking through my blog or if I made a master post and I got tired of keeping up with every single thing I'd posted, especially when the website itself was so janky and updating lists was a pain. It used to be so, so fun. And you used to be able to right click on notes on a post and be able to open that post in an entirely separate tab and now you can't do that anymore. :/ I feel like they took function stuff from other social media, and I hate it. I liked it the way it was. There used to be a button for filtering out NSFW content in your options. Turn it off and you wouldn't see NSFW posts. And then the ban happened and you had porn in the main tags, no way to avoid it but to blocklist those tags or block the person. And now we're in this weird ass in-between section where it's like, some things are okay but others aren't?? And you don't really know until you post it and suddenly it gets flagged? I hate it! Like can we be nsfw or not?!? Make up your damn mind, Tumblr! This picking and choosing shit is exactly why I just post my fics on Ao3 now period.

Every other damn website wants to pick and choose. This is okay, but this isn't, blah blah blah. And most of the time, you don't really know what's "too much" because their rules are so vague until they're sending you an email telling you they've taken it down or that you need to take it down, etc. And you could have something you consider "worse" on there, but this other thing that's more tame in your mind is the one that's flagged? Reading the rules of some other websites is basically like, 'It's okay unless we say it's not. :)' And??? That's such a sucky policy to have when you're the creator posting the stuff. You have people saying, 'Well this person has posted this and they've been fine!' and yet… There's always that fear of it just going poof regardless for me. XD Yess!! augh! They really are!! XD Same! Omg! … It's like, 'I wanna address this plot point, but this character won't get with the program!! We could be going places if they didn't just start having a conversation about this random thing that really does not tie into the plot at all.' XD Those characters, once I start writing the chapter, just kinda go off script nearly every time and we go places I could have never foreseen. Ohh, yess! 🥰 Angst and dark themes… XD I think this is why I gravitate towards villains so much! I just- asdlas0- Aaa- I too become feral. I have an appreciation for all on some level, but sometimes I really do be having stronger preferences. It's like,… The wheel of fortune wheel. "What am I craving today?" Who knows! XD Gotta spin that wheel and find out!

😭 I'm so glad that you wrote that because I get so worried when I write these responses sometimes that I'm making it too much about me when I'm just trying to show that I understand and feel the same, show the solidarity. I'm so happy. ;v; I love getting these kinds of asks where we can both just share our interests! Oh, I feel that so much. TvT The way asks work here feels so much more intimate than, say, comments on Ao3 do. I dunno, there's just something about it. D: Ah, I feel that so much! I have like, one person irl that I can talk about some of this stuff with, and we don't really get to talk much. I'm so glad! ;v; Scream as much as you want! These asks bring me joy too! Keep sending them and I'll keep responding!

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