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4ssun · 10 months

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not an ask but a "comment" because cas has me 🧍‍♀️.

firstly. yn is so irrational that i'm literally pulling strands of my hair out. but love is a strong emotion so i can understand to some extent? that doesn't excuse the amount of things she's done without proper consideration though..

uhh ok. the letter was probably about beomgyu leaving? (maybe quitting twitch and moving onto school studies) hence why chapter 26 is named "moving on".. and that's gonna be so hard to read bcs whenever i read anything ab recovery the tears FALL

27 being named "first love" is probably about felix because of the stems saying "still in love" (unless the chart was made on a website and the website didn't have a "still friends" option or something) or maybe it's a realization that though felix was an era of her life, beomgyu was her first true love?

i can guess 27-28 but don't want to put too much thought as twenty seven is most likely a reunion and twenty-eight is going more about that? the last chapter is more of what i wanted to focus on though because it's simply "cas" so i thinkk it's them dating again and just playing the sims together? like a timeskip? maybe there's a plot twist last second and the ghosts in the room they're playing the sims in go on stan twitter 🤨 (jokes but idk what to expect anymore)

something i was so mad at was yn completely skipping over the love confession and hating beomgyu... like yes that's understandable but PLEASE use empathy in this situation. you are no better than him, doing an impulsive stream because you think it's what's best.. both of them had better options yet decided to take the probably worst one and then yn completely looks past how she's just repeating in gyu's steps...

^^ seriously though because gyu let his love for yn take over and risked losing all his friends, lashed out on them, didn't let them see what he was thinking, and then runs away. yn closes up and is risking losing *everyone* because of love??

if the ending wasn't a happily ever after and my interpretation of 28 was wrong would i be mad? no... not really. if they did just leave each other as a past asset of their live and move on, i would accept that.. i feel like they both harmed each other without trying (excluding gyu being cold at the start) and both saw the major consequences. if they learn from their actions and 28 is just yn playing sims and reflecting on the times i would be okay because it's character development 👍👍

but if it was a happily ever after i would be happy too (as long as it's a timeskip because i can't imagine the ending being like 2 days after the implied unalive mention)

still would be okay with anything you write though 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

(this has got to be my favorite ask ever because you kind off?? read my mind?? in some ways!!)

i want to actually analyze a bit of what you said and offer you (and anyone else) some hints on the future chapters! to keep this from being a long paragraph of wall, i'll put a cut here!

yn and beomgyu are very alike in ways that you mentioned. both are impulsive, deeply feeling, and extremely irrational beings. but they are also different, yn is more openly emotional as we've seen with how she describes how she feels and shows her emotions outwardly. beomgyu, however, is not the same. he tends to not show his emotions (aka his initial coldness to yn) unless they're dragged out of him (keeho getting him to admit jealousy) and when he goes all out, he goes all out. hence his anger towards yeonjun. this will be touched on in chapter 28, which is a gyu-centric chapter.

the letter will also be touched on! but do keep in mind, in yn's emotional state and how she tends to be impulsive, her reaction to the letter might not make sense to someone who isn't irrational with how they respond when upset. also, it will be explained why yn doesn't react to beomgyu confessing that he loves her and how that ties in with his letter. (i can't wait hehe.)

i will say your theory for chapter 26 is spot on! however, i will say you're wrong about the character doing the tasks you mentioned. i don't want to give away too much but i literally was like 😲 when you said that bc that's exactly what happens hehe.

chapter 27 is about felix and yn! not gonna give spoilers on that one though... any ynlix shippers around?

chapters 28-29 are gyu-centric chapters, so if you wanna know why beomgyu decided to become dumb: those are the chapters for you!! can't wait to see how y'all react to that.

your views on yn and beomgyu are pretty much spot on. they both have made some very stupid decisions and are now reaping the consequences of those. however, i promise this story has a "happy" ending. will it be the traditional one of many smaus? probably not.

chapter 30 is also spot on in terms of plot with "someone" playing sims, but i don't wanna spoil it! my hint for you here is just to remember: everything comes full circle.

thank you so much for sending this ask! it's literally my favorite ever and i'm so flattered that you care about my smau enough to analyze and find theories!! <3 i hope these last 5 chapters do you justice.

(i gotta reblog this onto the writing blog though, so that hopefully everyone else can see it! this is my main hehe.)

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sleepymarmot · 2 years

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Trying to write something down about SF50 while “completely speechless” has already turned into “dull shock” but not yet settled into blankness

Not me deciding to look at the content warnings during the discussion early in the episode and seeing “premeditated act of violence” and “murder” and my heart dropping at the confirmation... I didn’t even notice “major character death” but I got the point without it.

I’m completely drained, and I’ve never even felt strongly about Chine. My condolences to those who did.

It’s not even the fact of the death itself that gets me, but how brutal and entirely unnecessary it was. The “Well I guess that’s how it is now, nothing to be done about it :/” energy from all characters involved. That one of the main characters murdered his friend and didn’t even sound particularly conflicted about it. (Are these characters even friends? Or just coworkers?) That it was specifically Lyke, who had put so much hope and goodwill into Aterika’kaal and its redemption, but refused to do the same for Chine.

And that the group fell apart so quickly and completely. And that Marn didn’t even say goodbye.

When the discussion was still happening, for a while I was thinking that Chine has become a foil to Alaway, not only ideologically but now also in modus operandi, and how cool it would be for the two of them to have a confrontation instead... Imagine a three-way standoff between Chine, Alaway & Aterika’kaal, and Lyke...

When the epilogues started I was like “Will they address the painting now” and was nodding along when they did, but Austin saying this counted as a zenith beat caught me completely off guard. That’s it?? Is he not going to be in the next season? That would be so anticlimactic. I’ve made my peace with the idea of Chine being gone by the end of the season (though not the way it actually happened), but I’m absolutely not ready to lose Duvall at this point.

Me before: Huh none of the Junk Mage zenith abilities seem relevant to Lyke’s story Me right now: Oh shit 😬 When I heard Lyke’s epilogue I thought this was a good sequel hook for the next season and felt relieved, but now I’m afraid. They aren’t going to wrap it up in the next episode, right?

And I really don’t want Lyke to leave, and not only because his arc has been one of my favorites and has enough power to be a part of the premise of the entire next season. But this horrible development and the hypocrisy of it bring new potential to the character. He stood there and couldn’t come up with anything better than executing his own damn friend. A part of his job indeed has been to kill people who pose a threat like that. Is this the situation where for a man with a hammer, everything looks like a nail? Is Lyke capable of self-reflecting on that and realizing that has become someone he doesn’t want to be? And then maybe temporarily or permanently retiring from adventuring like Marn did. (And then finding Aterika’kaal and [horrible prediction I don’t want to post because I am genuinely afraid it happens next week].) Or there is a path in the opposite direction, a darker one. His denial can get stronger and feed into self-righteousness. It could end with a Lyke who is causing more and more death, directly or not, and then looking back at it and going “I have done nothing wrong, ever, in my life” — and wholeheartedly meaning every word.

I’m going to be real with you: it’s hard for me to muster any kind of excitement about any of this. Or about the continuation next week and next year. The best I can do right now is to make peace with it. Which is a shame, because I’ve felt so enthusiastic about this season. Sure, I didn’t love the last few arcs the way I loved some of the others, but I didn’t expect the ending to sour my feelings in general like this. I don’t know what I expected, really. I’m not new here, I know how their season finales go and that I’m statistically more likely to be dissatisfied than not. Better luck next time?

#friends at the table #sangfielle #sangfielle spoilers #blah blah blah #you can guess my emotions from the paragraph so uhh don't read if you don't want to see grumbling and sadness #i think it's not negative enough to hide from the tags on purpose but who knows if the rest of the fandom agrees #idk i think it's fair to express sadness about an episode where sad shit happens

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thyandrawrites · 2 years

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H, K and L for the fanfic ask?

Uhh some interesting ones 👀

H. How would you describe your style?

Good question. I never really thought about it. I guess it could be described as heavily introspective...? I definitely tend to favor introspections over descriptions or even dialogue. I love writing character study pieces and I think my style reflects that. It often reads like a character going on a deep inner monologue and trying to make sense of things. My sentences tend to be on the long-ish side. When I was hunting for 100/150 words samples for zines I realized my style isn't easily quotable. When I go for impactful imagery or cool metaphors, they tend to span over paragraphs or across chapters. I also use far too many sentence fragments for emphasis, lol. My greatest enemy when hunting for samples (hey look! This was also a fragment!). I don't have a style with short sentences that feel like you've just been punched in the face, so to say. Sometimes I do pull off cool one-liners, but it's rare XD you're less likely to remember a story of mine because of a strong line than you are to remember it for an unexpected emotional punch / introspection

Another thing that comes to mind is that a lot of people commented on my pacing in BE. Apparently I can pace stories well? Tho I lowkey think that was a polite way to tell me "the characters haven't kissed yet but I find your premises cool enough to stick around" XD

K. What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with?

One idea I almost wrote but then scrapped for being too angsty was probably my fiancee breakup dabihawks idea. It was supposed to be an exploration of Hawks' fear of committment and of his inability to communicate his emotions healthily. It involved Hawks intending to propose, buying a ring, and then getting drunk and cheating on Touya because he gets scared of his feelings. Touya was supposed to find the ring after the breakup and take it reeeeal bad.

That was a whole lot of pain I didn't really feel like unpacking tho fhhdjs. The more I thought of the idea the more I realized I couldn't just "fix" their relationship after that strong a loss of trust without making their relationship extremely unhealthy so I just scrapped the whole AU lol. I can't write angst for the sake of angst. I need it to be instrumental to character growth or otherwise have narrative weight but that idea was just... Too much. It would just end up as hurt no comfort

L. What's the weirdest AU you've ever come up with?

Mmmh... AUs I have actually written? Maybe my "Hawks proposes with a ring that's part of his hero merch" crackfic? XD so many readers took that as a fluff piece, lmao

Okay, no, scratch that. My weirdest fic was probably the one where Hawks receives an egg with his face on it (like the keggo emoji from ctabb) from a fan. That fic was mostly an inside joke with a friend but 😂😂 I suppose it must've been a strange read for those who had no context

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