i keep thinking about pre mountains of chaos kipperlilly.

she is a child who doesn't know how to process her anger. i dont think she is actually angry at riz because he has struggled and she thinks that gives him an unfair advantage academically. i think shes missplassed her rage putting it on him when really it has nothing to do with him. she's jealous yes, but i think its more that she's upset and dosent know why, she doesn't have any tangible reason to be. she doesn't understand why she feels like this, shes jealous of riz because his life sucks in a way that makes sense to her and she sees that as unfair. because her pain isn't "justified" it doesn't come from tragedy it come from her and thats scary. so she takes it out on riz because that's easier than admitting she needs help.

because the alternative is realising that she might just be angry for the rest of her life, if its not something outside something tangible something she can avenge or defeat then it her own mind that it making her feel like this.

it's unhealthy and cruel and she's putting this on riz when he doesn't deserve it but shes a child and agine pre jy the bad kids didn't even know who she was, its not like she was going out of her way to be an asshole to riz. and i could easily be wrong but it seems like the only reason she is now is because she is being affected by the unnamed rage godess.