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estpi-mortuusart · 2 years

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Hi all, who have found this blog

It’s the greeting post which will help us will get to know each other. Maybe. Probably. Do anyone, except me, need it generally?

Eh, okey. A lot of text in 3... 2... 1...

Who I am? Who I am, Carl? My pseudo-name is Estpi Mortuus (or just Esmo). It's my nickname on Pinterest, AO3, FicBook (or "Книга Фанфиков"), Tumblr and DeviantArt. Like my profile picture - yeah, I had the phase. 21 year old girl, Russian Siberian. Or Siberian Russian. How is right? I am ficreader-otaku, beginning ficwriter (I wrote only 2 strange fics and few little essay-posts in the VK; over the last three years), autodidact artist-handmaker and fan of allusions. Yeah, last it's literally one of my brightest idiosyncrasies. In a way, I am a walking collection of the most various science facts (mainly from biology, medicine and ecology), citations from anime, films and songs, and other allusions.

So.

What am I doing in Tumblr? 1. Creative-blog. When I went to the university, I chose a rock climbing as my direction of physical education. Before I hadn't done rock climbing. Then why did I do it? Because fight fire with fire, as the saying goes, - I'm afraid of heights. Ba-da-bums~ But I must say that it worked well. Not completely, yes, but worked. I have a pretty strange combination of creative constipation and "fear of clear paper" ("боязнь чистого листа"). I have ideas and time for their realization, I can create. But I very rarely do it just because I wanted to and I have time for this. Usually I need any creative competition/challenge or study task with clear deadlines. And anyway, in 9/10 cases, I begin to work on a project at the last moment (mostly at night). I think that I don't need to list of effects of this bad tactic. Also my works are often low or mid-level - very rarely practice, yeah. This GIF beautiful describes of my relationships with creation:

Tumblr, it seems to me, is comfortable platform for me: there aren't people who know me in everyday life and the VK. So I just hope that with the help of this art-blog, which I created, and blogs for different fandoms, which I'm interested, I will be able to work out my fears and complexes and improve my creative skills.

2. Practice of my English. English isn't my native language. Of course, I had studied it during 12 years (10 years at the school and 2 years at the university). With varied success. I didn't khow where and how I will be able to use my English's knowledge and why I will need it. And after, in early third course on last autumn, the term paper happened. With 10% English sources (out of 50).

It was too beautiful moment, when you felt like a so fucking idiot. And I still will need to defend of a diploma in a year. (It is't hysteria and isn't rain - just a joke is very funny ;_;)

In short, I finally have got a good motivation for quality studying of English: my future diploma, a lot of english song in my playlist and fanfics in my bookmarks on the AO3 (it's depository of tasty and wonderful works), and my personal interest in a few fandoms.

3. It's just good here. And what, do you still need something? :)

What will be here? When I said that I'm autodidact artist-handmaker, I meant in particular it. I didn't study in an art-school and take art-courses. My creative skills are based on pieces of information from books, magazines and videos, advises and examples of my Maman, teachers and friends, attempts to repeat of another's simple pictures or characters from covers of Winx's magazines, and finally by my trials and errors. So my words about "low- and mid-level creative works" are the pure truth. I will try to improve it. In this art-blog I'm planning to publish: arts and fan-arts, photos of landscapes, air-clay figures and friend bracelets, and life stories. Important improvement: Actually almost all my works have a background of their creation. So life stories (#life_stories) will be almost always. Yes, guys, and what did you think? I have a deficit of communication and I'm talking to myself. Good motivation. My marasmus is getting stronger, and tomatoes are withering~

Now I have a some stock of my old works, which I will gradually publish here. But most probable I will rarely do it because I have hard to get up the courage for this.

And still something. If you see and will see anything mistakes into my texts, you may point out an it (in the correct form, I don't tolerate rudeness in my address). I will be very glad to your advises in studying language.

Uh-h-h, I think it's all. Thank you for you have read this post before the end) It was nice to meet you. Good day and good luck

You can find me on: Pinterest (a lot of collections) - https://www.pinterest.ru/1cins7apdkb8xroae9q71vsbol892t/ AO3 (only one strange work) - https://archiveofourown.org/users/Estpi_Mortuus FicBook (two strange works) - https://ficbook.net/authors/3434420 DeviantArt (there is a void, because pictures don't displayed and I don't know what do) - https://www.deviantart.com/estpi-mortuus

#my art #self-portrait #life stories #a lot of text #sorry my English is very bad #but I tried #I spent about a month on this post #why do my portraits have a pokerface always?#I don't have a marasmus - it's just ironic russian pun Маразм крепчал #The tomatoes are withering - it's a part of russian phase Любовь прошла и помидоры завяли #I publish it while my rational part haven't woke

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