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Written for Sirius and Harry Saturday hosted by @jmagnabo92. Remus is in this but mostly Sirius and Harry centric. Tw for some low self esteem thoughts by Harry

“You’re forfeiting, that’s final,” said Sirius tersely, as they walked down the Hogwarts hall to the stairs leading up to the Astronomy Tower.

Harry didn’t say anything. He seemed to be lost in thought even as he raced to keep up with Sirius’s long strides.

Upon reaching the Astronomy staircase, Harry moved to start making his way up the stairs. Sirius put a hand gently on his shoulder and led him to a side wall. He tapped the wall in a strange pattern, and led Harry into a small room that magically appeared.

As the door closed behind them, Harry felt the strange sensation of moving upwards.

“Is this an elevator?” he asked looking around.

“Prongs, Moony, and I managed to finish enchanting it by seventh year,” replied Sirius shortly.

Harry looked over at his godfather to find his face stony. He fell quiet, feeling guilty. Once again, he proved to be nothing but a nuisance in Sirius’s life, he thought sadly.

After the elevator stopped and Sirius led him into his Astronomy office, Harry tried to prepare himself for the worst. He knew Sirius was angry. Probably because he had just managed to prove his innocence to the public, and now his godson would once again ruin his reputation by allegedly cheating his way into the Triwizard Tournament. Harry resolved himself to do whatever it took to win, to make Sirius proud of him again.

“Moony,” Sirius called tersely as he poured a bunch of Floo powder into his fireplace. “Remus should be here soon,” he told Harry.

Harry bit his lip, and nodded as he sat down on a cozy looking couch. Sirius’s gaze softened looking at his godson. He moved closer to Harry and put his hands on his shoulders.

“You must be frightened, Prongslet,” he said gently.

Harry shrugged. He didn’t really feel anything. Or maybe a small part of him did feel scared. But a larger part of him was more quietly resolved to the fact that his life would always be in danger, that he would always need to fight.

He should’ve known something like this would happen. He had just had the best summer of his life. Of course the universe couldn’t let him be happy for too long. The Floo flared green to reveal Remus, who stepped into the office looking grave. He sat down next to Harry and placed an arm around his shoulders in silent comfort.

What are you thinking, baby?” Sirius asked, breaking the silence. “You can talk to me you know.”

“I know.”

Sirius gave him a slight smile. “Sometimes, it doesn’t-,” he paused trying to find the right words. “Sometimes, I think you say things for mine or Moony’s benefit, rather than what you actually feel.”

Harry blanched, shocked that Sirius had figured him out. Looking away from Sirius’s grey eyes, he stared at a particularly shaggy area of the rug.

“Who cares what I think?” He replied honestly. “I have to compete anyway. I don’t have a choice.”

Sirius’s eyes widened. He wrapped Harry up into a hug. With Remus’s arm around his shoulders, and squished into his godfather’s soft robe, surrounded by their scents, Harry felt his throat clog up.

“You always have a choice, Harry,” Sirius said from above Harry’s head. “I know this may seem like a surprise, but I’m rather familiar with magical law. I’m quite sure you can forfeit each task at no risk to you.”

“But everyone will think I’m a coward,” Harry whispered.

“Fuck them,” replied Sirius. “If they were entered into a life threatening competition against their will, they’d be singing a different tune.”

“Don’t you want me to win?” asked Harry bitterly. “You and Dad would’ve signed up for this if it happened when you were at Hogwarts.”

Sirius and Remus exchanged surprised looks.

“Prongslet, James and I were well…leagues less mature than you are right now,” Sirius began.

“In short, they were idiots,” added Remus, with a small smirk.

“If that’s what you’re worried about, I have no doubt that if Jamie were alive, he’d have pulled you out of school by now,” Sirius continued. “Just the cursed broom in your first year would’ve been the final straw for him,” he laughed.

It comforted Harry to know that James would’ve been protective over him. But something else kept nagging at him.

“I want you to be proud of me,” he said softly, feeling more vulnerable than ever. “I don’t want you to be embarrassed when I stand up in front of everyone during the first task and forfeit.”

He felt Remus’s arm tighten around his shoulders. Sirius’s eyes shined.

“Harry, first of all, I’d be more proud that you would bravely advocate for yourself and your rights. Secondly, you make me proud every day,” Sirius said gently.

“Why? I’m not that special. Even with facing Voldemort, I had a lot of help-,”

“It’s not about facing Voldemort,” interrupted Sirius. “Well, that’s also quite impressive and a discussion for another time,” he paused, before moving his hands to cup Harry’s face.

“Harry you’ve been through so much trauma, so many things that never should’ve happened to you. But you’re so kind, so committed to the people you love, and always wanting to do the right thing. Why wouldn’t I be proud of you?” Sirius asked.

“Harry, your accomplishments are wonderful and appreciated. But your character is what matters most,” added Remus quietly.

Overwhelmed, Harry could only nod. Sirius sighed and moved to sit on the other side of his godson.

“It will be alright, my love. Everything will be alright,” the black haired man comforted his godson. And for the first time, Harry started to believe him.

#wolfstar #wolfstar raising harry #sirius and harry saturday #Agatha writes Sirius and Harry #was this inspired by Helen hoangs the heart principle yes #lol realize this didn’t queue properly or I can’t choose dates properly Sirius and Harry Wednesday I guess

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